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why? seriously, why.
asdfk;sdjk; i can't stop crying. i know most of it is about the funeral and thinking about how the three of them must feel, but there's definitely something else wrong with me. i felt fine for most of today, obviously until we left for the church. then i cried, a lot, but i tried to stop because even though lots of people in attendance were crying, no one else in the group i was with [ms hoskin, charles, kristen, aisling, colleen, anne, cecilia] was. i know it's normal to cry at funerals, but if they weren't then why was i? and now i'm doing it again. i don't know. i feel sad but not seriously depressed or anything. i feel no desire to kill myself. there are no major problems in my personal life. so why are my face and shirt soaking?
mainly i can't believe that i'm ACTUALLY simultaneously crying and writing in my livejournal. i'm going to have to break out my nonexistent dashboard cd in a second.
asdfk;sdjk; i can't stop crying. i know most of it is about the funeral and thinking about how the three of them must feel, but there's definitely something else wrong with me. i felt fine for most of today, obviously until we left for the church. then i cried, a lot, but i tried to stop because even though lots of people in attendance were crying, no one else in the group i was with [ms hoskin, charles, kristen, aisling, colleen, anne, cecilia] was. i know it's normal to cry at funerals, but if they weren't then why was i? and now i'm doing it again. i don't know. i feel sad but not seriously depressed or anything. i feel no desire to kill myself. there are no major problems in my personal life. so why are my face and shirt soaking?
mainly i can't believe that i'm ACTUALLY simultaneously crying and writing in my livejournal. i'm going to have to break out my nonexistent dashboard cd in a second.