AAC, job, finding the fit
Jennifer (my temporary roomie and college friend) said tonight that she doesn't like seeing that I am so unhappy with my job.
When Logan called me at work today I told him that I just want out of this deal. He said something along the lines of, "you could take night classes and keep that job until you've finished a degree. That way you wouldn't be so far in debt." This was wisely spoken.
I told my Dad tonight that I don't know if this is what I want to do with the rest of my life and he seemed okay with that. I told him that I'm still not sure, but that I feel like I need some kind of change.
I don't like feeling like I'm not good at my job. I think the amount of work they put on us is effecting the quality of the care I'm providing. This is not fair to me or my patients. I'm also afraid that maybe I'm just not made to work at the pace of a pediatric OT. I constantly feel so overwhelmed. It's gotten somewhat easier, but not better. I sincerely do not LOVE my job. I know I would love to work with the developmentally delayed in some way. I should really get on the ball with contacting Visionaries and Voices, but I'm not sure they would want me.
I went looking at the Art Academy of Cincinnati's website tonight. I'm basically hoping to whet my whistle and get back into the creative/ artistic side of myself. They have a community education program and I'm thinking of taking an intro to design studio, just to see if this profession might be all that I've built it up to be in my head.
I'm trying to be rational about all this, but it's very tempting to just throw caution to the wind and jump in head first with no idea how I'm going to do it. Especially when I think about how stressful and overwhelming my current job feels.
Although I'm sure being jobless and health insurance-less might feel just as stressful and overwhelming.
Working fifty plus hours a week at Starbucks seems like a dream tonight.
See, I told you guys I was crazy.
When Logan called me at work today I told him that I just want out of this deal. He said something along the lines of, "you could take night classes and keep that job until you've finished a degree. That way you wouldn't be so far in debt." This was wisely spoken.
I told my Dad tonight that I don't know if this is what I want to do with the rest of my life and he seemed okay with that. I told him that I'm still not sure, but that I feel like I need some kind of change.
I don't like feeling like I'm not good at my job. I think the amount of work they put on us is effecting the quality of the care I'm providing. This is not fair to me or my patients. I'm also afraid that maybe I'm just not made to work at the pace of a pediatric OT. I constantly feel so overwhelmed. It's gotten somewhat easier, but not better. I sincerely do not LOVE my job. I know I would love to work with the developmentally delayed in some way. I should really get on the ball with contacting Visionaries and Voices, but I'm not sure they would want me.
I went looking at the Art Academy of Cincinnati's website tonight. I'm basically hoping to whet my whistle and get back into the creative/ artistic side of myself. They have a community education program and I'm thinking of taking an intro to design studio, just to see if this profession might be all that I've built it up to be in my head.
I'm trying to be rational about all this, but it's very tempting to just throw caution to the wind and jump in head first with no idea how I'm going to do it. Especially when I think about how stressful and overwhelming my current job feels.
Although I'm sure being jobless and health insurance-less might feel just as stressful and overwhelming.
Working fifty plus hours a week at Starbucks seems like a dream tonight.
See, I told you guys I was crazy.