You know that feeling...where you can't get caught up...no matter what?
The down stairs of my house right now is SPOTLESS. You could literally eat off of any surface (although I'd kick your ass if you did) & I've just recently re-painted my kitchen & finally painted my dining room (& I must say, they are GORGEOUS.) But now, my upstairs looks like a fucking hurricane hit it as I've been completely neglecting it while focusing all my left-over energy (that is, left-over from keeping the 4 kids, 3 days a week) entirely on the downstairs & getting it exactly the way I want it. Several weeks ago, the upstairs was spotless & the downstairs was a disaster. Damn it. Oh yeah, speaking keeping of the kids, the whole situation has me completely stressed & I'm not enjoying it at all. I have got a very bad attitude about it now & I really wish I could just be done with it. Oh well. That's what I get, I guess. One of these days I'll learn to keep my big mouth shut.
My friend Kara (the one mentioned several months back with the stressful pregnancy & all the bleeding & whatnot) had her baby Sunday! He is the sweetest, tiniest, wittle lumpy-headed snookum wookum peanut ever! I got to go see them in the hospital Monday afternoon & snuggle with him for hours. I made Zander stay home with daddy as it is nasty, germy flu season & all & he was totally pissed about it. I assured him that I would take him to see him soon & promised that I would take tons of pictures for him & did so. As soon as I walked through the door, he made me come up here & show him all the pics. He laughed & "aww'ed" over them & decided that we needed to print a few of his favorites out & hang them on our refrigerator. So now, he has a little brag page that he looks at every time he goes to the fridge & he will tell anyone that will listen that his 'Aunt Kara's new baby, Colin Jacob, was in her tummy but now he came out in the hospital & he is Madeline's *BRAND NEW!* baby brother & I am going to go see him tomorrow.' It really is the sweetest thing.
My dog has a nasty lump on his neck. Like, not a little one. We found it Saturday but I have been insanely busy & just now have the time to take him to the vet tomorrow to check it out. I'm scared about it. Just sayin'.
My brother has officially moved to Tucson. My pleas (read: BEGGING) to him for a visit on his journey out there (of course) got completely brushed off (again) with excuses of 'don't have the time' or 'can't afford it' even after I fucking bribed him with gas money & food. He did, however, make the time to stop to spend a couple of days & a night of drinking with some buddies of his (again.) I mean....WHAT THE FUCK!?! BLAAARGH!!! Ok, as of this moment, it's over. I'm finished being everybody's butt-monkey! Hey, I just made myself laugh & even did a little snort. But seriously, I have right now officially quit bothering to give a shit.
Ok, I have GOT to go to bed. I really have no idea how I'm still awake.
Hope you all are well......KISSES!