Fangirly And Emotional Comment 2.0 (Although Technically 3.0)!
OH MY GOODNESS, I NEVER WANTED THIS TO END. I JUST WANTED IT TO GO ON FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER. AND EVER. Then again, the ending is kind of ridiculously perfect, so... GUHH. YOU ARE PERFECT. ♥♥♥
I love how Mark realised the whole love thing - learning the facts of life, Mark! - and didn't want to rush things but also really wanted to kiss Eduardo and and and. I JUST CANNOT. This is all so very lovely. I could cry rainbows all over the desk right now. And I love Chris and Dustin and their epic romance. And I love Eduardo so, so, so much - especially when he's just woken up and his hair is everywhere (best mental image to ever grace my brain at 4 AM). And I love how the Facebook staff thinks Mark's good mood can only be caused by Eduardo or drugs. And I love all the emails and texts. I BASICALLY LOVE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING IN THIS FIC. ♥
I shall quote again, because your writing is too beautiful.
“I know.” Chris looks Mark in the eye. “The thing is, Mark, when someone loves you so much, they would do absolutely anything you asked-sometimes the best way to love them back is not to ask.”
Aww. Chris Hughes: guiding his socially awkward friends through life since 1983. ♥
Mark shifts uncomfortably in his chair. Gets the sense that they are maybe not just talking about Dustin. Thinks about the relief in Eduardo’s eyes when Mark had said, it’s ok if the answer is no. Tries to remember a time when Eduardo refused him anything, and can’t. Forgiveness, maybe, he thinks, but that probably doesn’t count: if the other person stops giving because they have to. Because there’s nothing left.
Oh god, I shouldn't read these things at night. Because there's nothing left... My heart. You are doing things to it. Please stop. No but seriously, this is so beautifully sad.
Chris is still watching him steadily. “In a similar vein, when you’re loved by someone who would never think to ask you for anything, loving them back means you learn to give them what they need anyway.”
Chris is full of magical wisdom. I love the way you write him, it's perfect.
“Can you see how I might have gotten that impression?” Mark nods, and Eduardo bites his lip. “I didn’t want to give in about California because it felt like that was all I ever did. I would give and give and give, and you never-I thought if I moved out here, it would just be- I tried to tell you things, too, Mark. A lot of things.”
HE TRIED TO TELL HIM THINGS. Let me cry forever. Stupid, stupid, wonderful boys.
Eduardo runs his fingers lightly through his hair and despite the gravity of the moment Mark is struck again, hard, by how beautiful he is.
I don't know why but every time someone refers to a guy (especially Eduardo) as beautiful, my heart goes all crazy and I get this really stupid smile on my face. I know it's a really common thing in fics and all, but I just love it. Maybe I'm just being weird. But anyway, love this. ♥
He thinks maybe he should have said something, though he can’t honestly imagine how he would have begun that conversation. Hey, Wardo? Were you in love with me back then? More to the point, now that we’ve been friends again for five minutes, do you think you still could be?
Nawwww. I, just... nawwww. This fic gives me all the warm feelings.
“The same way I know the earth is round, grass is green, and the sky is blue?” Chris shrugs, doesn’t even bother to look away from his computer screen.
“The sky is colorless,” Mark says pointlessly, which earns him a sideways glare.
It's far too easy to picture this XD And the entire Sex & Gayness Conversation was just pure gold. Chris and Dustin win everything.
He’s never admitted it to anyone (and probably never will), but he used to watch the runway lights rushing up to meet the plane as it landed, then squeeze his eyes shut, concentrating as hard as he possibly could, and think: Wardo, I’m here.
I can't even describe how perfect this bit is. I have no words. No words, just love.
THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. It was so, so, so lovely. Mark being so careful with Eduardo, and Eduardo shaking when Mark touched his face... I think all this love might just make my heart explode. ♥♥♥
Yes. I think that's enough rambling for now. It's like 5 AM right now, so, umm, I hope my comments make sense (even a little bit) and there aren't too many typos. I just really wanted to read this and comment before I go to bed.
This is absolutely perfect. And so are you. And thanks again, so much. x ♥
i'm just telling you now, this is going to be one of those comments i come back to when i totally lose faith in my ability to write anything. just... thank you so much for taking the time to write all of this out. my heart is doing funny things & just, i can't. i really can't put into words how happy i am that you liked this!
and you did that thing again, where all the lines you picked out are the ones i like best, too! (I DID NOT MEAN TO WRITE A CHRIS/DUSTIN B-PLOT. IT JUST HAPPENED. I DON'T EVEN KNOW. ugh, i have so much love for both of them. the whole sex talk was basically totally crack and i wrote and was like, WHAT EVEN IS THIS, but i left it in because they are perfect and make everything better by their presence, nothing will ever convince me otherwise.)
the thing about mark visiting singapore in the years when he & wardo weren't talking, i just... i do this thing when i'm writing sometimes, where i have a scenario in my head and i'll close my eyes and picture it and it's just like, there's a lightning bolt and i know exactly what the character was thinking/feeling in that moment. this was one of those. in short, i am a crazy person & get overly involved with my characters, but i'm so delighted you liked this. ♥
i... really can't. i'm out of words for how happy your comments have made me and the extent of how warm & fuzzy i am inside right now. face rainbows right back at you, you extraordinarily marvelous human being. ♥♥♥
OH MY GOD. Okay, just so you know, you are totally making my face go like this:
Not even kidding. I probably look like I'm on drugs.
Also, THE CHRIS/DUSTIN B-PLOT WAS FANTASTICAL IN THE MOST FANTASTICAL WAYS. Alsoalso, it's wonderful how involved you get with your characters. It's not crazy, it's simply wonderful. ♥
I'M HAPPY THAT MY COMMENTS MADE YOU HAPPY BECAUSE THIS FIC MADE ME REALLY FLIPPIN' HAPPY AND... YES. ♥♥♥
OH MY GOODNESS, I NEVER WANTED THIS TO END. I JUST WANTED IT TO GO ON FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER. AND EVER. Then again, the ending is kind of ridiculously perfect, so... GUHH. YOU ARE PERFECT. ♥♥♥
I love how Mark realised the whole love thing - learning the facts of life, Mark! - and didn't want to rush things but also really wanted to kiss Eduardo and and and. I JUST CANNOT. This is all so very lovely. I could cry rainbows all over the desk right now. And I love Chris and Dustin and their epic romance. And I love Eduardo so, so, so much - especially when he's just woken up and his hair is everywhere (best mental image to ever grace my brain at 4 AM). And I love how the Facebook staff thinks Mark's good mood can only be caused by Eduardo or drugs. And I love all the emails and texts.
I BASICALLY LOVE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING IN THIS FIC. ♥
I shall quote again, because your writing is too beautiful.
“I know.” Chris looks Mark in the eye. “The thing is, Mark, when someone loves you so much, they would do absolutely anything you asked-sometimes the best way to love them back is not to ask.”
Aww. Chris Hughes: guiding his socially awkward friends through life since 1983. ♥
Mark shifts uncomfortably in his chair. Gets the sense that they are maybe not just talking about Dustin. Thinks about the relief in Eduardo’s eyes when Mark had said, it’s ok if the answer is no. Tries to remember a time when Eduardo refused him anything, and can’t. Forgiveness, maybe, he thinks, but that probably doesn’t count: if the other person stops giving because they have to. Because there’s nothing left.
Oh god, I shouldn't read these things at night. Because there's nothing left... My heart. You are doing things to it. Please stop. No but seriously, this is so beautifully sad.
Chris is still watching him steadily. “In a similar vein, when you’re loved by someone who would never think to ask you for anything, loving them back means you learn to give them what they need anyway.”
Chris is full of magical wisdom. I love the way you write him, it's perfect.
“Can you see how I might have gotten that impression?” Mark nods, and Eduardo bites his lip. “I didn’t want to give in about California because it felt like that was all I ever did. I would give and give and give, and you never-I thought if I moved out here, it would just be- I tried to tell you things, too, Mark. A lot of things.”
HE TRIED TO TELL HIM THINGS. Let me cry forever. Stupid, stupid, wonderful boys.
Eduardo runs his fingers lightly through his hair and despite the gravity of the moment Mark is struck again, hard, by how beautiful he is.
I don't know why but every time someone refers to a guy (especially Eduardo) as beautiful, my heart goes all crazy and I get this really stupid smile on my face. I know it's a really common thing in fics and all, but I just love it. Maybe I'm just being weird. But anyway, love this. ♥
He thinks maybe he should have said something, though he can’t honestly imagine how he would have begun that conversation. Hey, Wardo? Were you in love with me back then? More to the point, now that we’ve been friends again for five minutes, do you think you still could be?
Nawwww. I, just... nawwww. This fic gives me all the warm feelings.
“The same way I know the earth is round, grass is green, and the sky is blue?” Chris shrugs, doesn’t even bother to look away from his computer screen.
“The sky is colorless,” Mark says pointlessly, which earns him a sideways glare.
It's far too easy to picture this XD And the entire Sex & Gayness Conversation was just pure gold. Chris and Dustin win everything.
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He’s never admitted it to anyone (and probably never will), but he used to watch the runway lights rushing up to meet the plane as it landed, then squeeze his eyes shut, concentrating as hard as he possibly could, and think: Wardo, I’m here.
I can't even describe how perfect this bit is. I have no words. No words, just love.
THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. It was so, so, so lovely. Mark being so careful with Eduardo, and Eduardo shaking when Mark touched his face... I think all this love might just make my heart explode. ♥♥♥
Yes. I think that's enough rambling for now. It's like 5 AM right now, so, umm, I hope my comments make sense (even a little bit) and there aren't too many typos. I just really wanted to read this and comment before I go to bed.
This is absolutely perfect. And so are you. And thanks again, so much. x ♥
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i'm just telling you now, this is going to be one of those comments i come back to when i totally lose faith in my ability to write anything. just... thank you so much for taking the time to write all of this out. my heart is doing funny things & just, i can't. i really can't put into words how happy i am that you liked this!
and you did that thing again, where all the lines you picked out are the ones i like best, too! (I DID NOT MEAN TO WRITE A CHRIS/DUSTIN B-PLOT. IT JUST HAPPENED. I DON'T EVEN KNOW. ugh, i have so much love for both of them. the whole sex talk was basically totally crack and i wrote and was like, WHAT EVEN IS THIS, but i left it in because they are perfect and make everything better by their presence, nothing will ever convince me otherwise.)
the thing about mark visiting singapore in the years when he & wardo weren't talking, i just... i do this thing when i'm writing sometimes, where i have a scenario in my head and i'll close my eyes and picture it and it's just like, there's a lightning bolt and i know exactly what the character was thinking/feeling in that moment. this was one of those. in short, i am a crazy person & get overly involved with my characters, but i'm so delighted you liked this. ♥
i... really can't. i'm out of words for how happy your comments have made me and the extent of how warm & fuzzy i am inside right now. face rainbows right back at you, you extraordinarily marvelous human being. ♥♥♥
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Not even kidding. I probably look like I'm on drugs.
Also, THE CHRIS/DUSTIN B-PLOT WAS FANTASTICAL IN THE MOST FANTASTICAL WAYS.
Alsoalso, it's wonderful how involved you get with your characters. It's not crazy, it's simply wonderful. ♥
I'M HAPPY THAT MY COMMENTS MADE YOU HAPPY BECAUSE THIS FIC MADE ME REALLY FLIPPIN' HAPPY AND... YES. ♥♥♥
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