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[indarknesslives]

this is the first time i've been home before three in...oh, i don't know how long.

i saw my psychiatrist today and he says i have ADD, so he prescribed meds.

i hate being confused and head over heels when i'm not supposed to.

i hate feeling alone in a group of people i love.

i hate pity.

i hate making people think i'm upset.

i hate jeopardizing other people's good times.

i hate having homework, and not being able to do it because i haven't gone to class to learn how to.

i hate throwing up when you wake up and not being able to go to school when you want to and know you have to.

i hate having to pay $155 a month when i don't have it for counseling i don't really need.

i hate only being able to earn money on the weekends.

i wish i was better at paying attention.

i wish i was better at getting motivated for the things that need motivation.

i wish i wasn't such a dreamer and more of a doer.

i wish he hadn't left.