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today was a good day, friday was a good night...definatly saturday too. i swear im never having a boyfreind again because going from boy to boy just hanging out let me tell you its fun who needs relationships when all they bring is pain...
you know i never really gave someone a chance. and they said something this weekend and it kinda made me think, like wow hes fucking cool not that he wasnt before but i dunno too bad hes taken now...
i need to stop using the f word haha yeah i do, ill work on that, but sometimes its just necessary.
oh yeah i finnaly got closure with derek haha its only taken a year....but he has a gf and eventhough i was initially upset...im acutally happy that he does like really happy and i hope that she is good to him because eventhough sometimes hes an ass he deserves the best. maybe one day down the road we can be freinds but i like it as is. i dont really need him, i thought i did, but for almost the past year he hasnt been there for me so why does it make any difference now right? also i will never make the same mistake of jumping into one relationship after the next because that justs fucks stuff up (ooops my bad on the f word) but if i could to back i would do everything completely different and you know i think we'd still be together but thats not how it is. live and learn i guess. sorry to you rebound boys. who knew a rebound could last so long huh? oh well
i wait for the right letter everyday in the mail. it has yet to come.
thanks for you guys that took care of me friday night, i was kinda a mess..sorry, but it was fun! painlessness is amazing
you know i never really gave someone a chance. and they said something this weekend and it kinda made me think, like wow hes fucking cool not that he wasnt before but i dunno too bad hes taken now...
i need to stop using the f word haha yeah i do, ill work on that, but sometimes its just necessary.
oh yeah i finnaly got closure with derek haha its only taken a year....but he has a gf and eventhough i was initially upset...im acutally happy that he does like really happy and i hope that she is good to him because eventhough sometimes hes an ass he deserves the best. maybe one day down the road we can be freinds but i like it as is. i dont really need him, i thought i did, but for almost the past year he hasnt been there for me so why does it make any difference now right? also i will never make the same mistake of jumping into one relationship after the next because that justs fucks stuff up (ooops my bad on the f word) but if i could to back i would do everything completely different and you know i think we'd still be together but thats not how it is. live and learn i guess. sorry to you rebound boys. who knew a rebound could last so long huh? oh well
i wait for the right letter everyday in the mail. it has yet to come.
thanks for you guys that took care of me friday night, i was kinda a mess..sorry, but it was fun! painlessness is amazing