I don't understand all the thing you've seen
So, I haven't updated my journal in quite some time...No big deal, but it gives me something to do on those really boring nights. I'm talking to my dad about moving back to michigan to live with him...I've never felt so torn in my entire life. I don't think i've ever been this depressed about having to make a decision either. Like...I miss all my friends, but it is just shitty. Do i want to leave like one of the greatest people i've ever met just to go hang out with my old friends? I don't know..we'll see what happens. I hate my job. a lot. I hate the people i work with too. shitty shitty. I'm like the hardest person to ever make happy....that sucks. there is always something wrong. Oh well...things will change eventually. So like....yeah. i went to a party last night and drank too much so i had to call in sick from work because i was throwing up all morning. i hate throwing up. Hmm....I still hang out with joe every so often. He's such a good friend (and i don't think he realizes it) but yeah...i'm happy i get to see him. He's the only reason i want to stay in washington really...the thought of leaving someone so fun and nice and funny....life would be so bland, i don't know if i'd be able to handle it. I wish we were all neighbors. (nacho and cheese with salsa on the side) sorry...andrea would understand. Anyway, yeah. And like if i miss joe so much after not seeing him for like a week i can only imagine going like months without him....who would point out my dumb mistakes =) haha. I remember when i was in michigan and he was in washington....it was shitty. But absence makes the heart grow fonder. I have been talking to phil kind of a lot lately...he cracks me up, seriously. I can't talk to him and not laugh. ( either at his jokes or just at him in general) my pals are so crazy. I want to go to canada and get drunk.....my liver hates me. Oooh but canada...mm. Oooh. I am miserable. I hate making decisions. Seriously....i do. I want to have everything. I want to have joe and all my michigander friends all at the same time and have lots of fun and spread lots of happiness and love. I want to jump off of a bridge.