bitch bitch bitch
i feel like i have no control over anything in my life and i think im seriously losing it... im losing my mind and im totally freaking out... this is my journal... so im taking the liberty to bitch all i want because i will go insane otherwise... so leave you're "man you complain a lot", "suck it up", "its not that big of a deal" or any other dumbass comments to yourself...
ok, keeping the temp on less than 60 degrees everyday.... wtf is wrong with that?!? am i the only one that sees a problem there... and not to mention when no one's there and sometimes with windows open and other times with the vents closed and now the a.c. doesnt even blow cold air..... SOOOOOOOOOOOO need to freaking get that fixed...... got the electricity bill, yea, im gonna hurt someone, im confused on some parts, so gotta call the company... so of course its a houston number meaning gotta call from the cell and waste minutes... then my apt phone bill came and i need to call them about that, cuase if its always gonna be that high, im getting rid of it.... so bills are driving me nuts
my roommates are driving me up the wall.... seroiusly, im gonna be a bitch here, but im sick of it smelling wierd in there, im sick of accents i can barely understand, im sick of dumb things that annoy me... things that are common sense to me, but not to them, it drives me up the wall.... like utensils in the dishwasher... you put 'em in with the spoon/fork part sticking up and the handle down.... so when i find 'em the other way around in the dishwasher... it drives me up the wall!!!!!!!! stuff like that, aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh.... and i realize im being petty or whatever, but its those little things that drive me up the wall, ya know........ im just annoyed at how they pick roommates, like is it random or what... cause i didnt get a lotta things that i put as preferences... its far from the entrance so more walking, i said nonsmokers, i got 2 occasional smokers... like if i was doing it, i'd try to balance it, aaahhhhhhhh i woudlnt put all intl students w/one person from around here, i dont know... aseoiowhfiowghiowagieohgiowaghg *breathe* im just so damn frustrated... and seriously, call me bitchy or whatever, im complaining cause i have every right to, cause i can just see people sitting at the comps thinking im being too dramatic or something........ but whatever
i wish i woulda just lived at home, driving i can suck up and deal with, ya know... no bills, good food that my mom makes... speaking of food, gained 5 lbs and counting.... and seriously, no matter what i do, eat healthy, not eat healthy, its like the second i live away from home i gain weight... ever since minnesota i've gained weight... like the thought of gaining back what i lost from freshman year terrifies me... like seriously, i dont know what to do, yea, exercise and all, but i dont know... i just dont understand that when i live on my own, why i gain weight soooo fast, and yea, my eating habits are different, but not that different...
what else can i bitch about... oh yea... why is it that in classes and all im able to strike up conversations with people and have class buddy peoples... but when it comes to making actual friends, i have no abilities.... like i have no idea how to make friends, i dont know how to... im an idiot... and most the people i meet in classes of course commute and live who knows how far away... so yea.. i just feel like the worlds biggest screwup right now... i cant do anything right... ohhhhhhhhh and as i was walking to the lab tonight, the flashing uta signie thing about upcoming events flashes depression screening right as im walking by... hmmm.... a sign?!? i think so...
but yea.... i guess all for now, i gotta get to my accounting software... sooooooo, yea...
ok, keeping the temp on less than 60 degrees everyday.... wtf is wrong with that?!? am i the only one that sees a problem there... and not to mention when no one's there and sometimes with windows open and other times with the vents closed and now the a.c. doesnt even blow cold air..... SOOOOOOOOOOOO need to freaking get that fixed...... got the electricity bill, yea, im gonna hurt someone, im confused on some parts, so gotta call the company... so of course its a houston number meaning gotta call from the cell and waste minutes... then my apt phone bill came and i need to call them about that, cuase if its always gonna be that high, im getting rid of it.... so bills are driving me nuts
my roommates are driving me up the wall.... seroiusly, im gonna be a bitch here, but im sick of it smelling wierd in there, im sick of accents i can barely understand, im sick of dumb things that annoy me... things that are common sense to me, but not to them, it drives me up the wall.... like utensils in the dishwasher... you put 'em in with the spoon/fork part sticking up and the handle down.... so when i find 'em the other way around in the dishwasher... it drives me up the wall!!!!!!!! stuff like that, aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh.... and i realize im being petty or whatever, but its those little things that drive me up the wall, ya know........ im just annoyed at how they pick roommates, like is it random or what... cause i didnt get a lotta things that i put as preferences... its far from the entrance so more walking, i said nonsmokers, i got 2 occasional smokers... like if i was doing it, i'd try to balance it, aaahhhhhhhh i woudlnt put all intl students w/one person from around here, i dont know... aseoiowhfiowghiowagieohgiowaghg *breathe* im just so damn frustrated... and seriously, call me bitchy or whatever, im complaining cause i have every right to, cause i can just see people sitting at the comps thinking im being too dramatic or something........ but whatever
i wish i woulda just lived at home, driving i can suck up and deal with, ya know... no bills, good food that my mom makes... speaking of food, gained 5 lbs and counting.... and seriously, no matter what i do, eat healthy, not eat healthy, its like the second i live away from home i gain weight... ever since minnesota i've gained weight... like the thought of gaining back what i lost from freshman year terrifies me... like seriously, i dont know what to do, yea, exercise and all, but i dont know... i just dont understand that when i live on my own, why i gain weight soooo fast, and yea, my eating habits are different, but not that different...
what else can i bitch about... oh yea... why is it that in classes and all im able to strike up conversations with people and have class buddy peoples... but when it comes to making actual friends, i have no abilities.... like i have no idea how to make friends, i dont know how to... im an idiot... and most the people i meet in classes of course commute and live who knows how far away... so yea.. i just feel like the worlds biggest screwup right now... i cant do anything right... ohhhhhhhhh and as i was walking to the lab tonight, the flashing uta signie thing about upcoming events flashes depression screening right as im walking by... hmmm.... a sign?!? i think so...
but yea.... i guess all for now, i gotta get to my accounting software... sooooooo, yea...