it hurts to say this but...
i'm thinking of getting out of vmt.i really cant take it anymore.i enjoy that place no longer.TOO much has changed and i wish with all my might that i could bring those times back but it breaks my heart to say that i cant, nobody can.im starting to lose my interest in guitar and the place itself.i remember last year how anxious i was to wanting to play and learning songs with palacios and performing in audiences, getting all psyched for uil and field trips to lcc, how we helped each other out with our pieces and scales and such, how we'd sing along to hotel california practically everyday yet we still needed the lyrics, how alex always complained that she was tired of hearing jesus and joel playing brand new yet tally was singing along to it though she only knew the chorus and we'd break out into playful laughter cause of that.just the togetherness, the unity we all had.the joy and happiness of being there.the thing that would have you all like "ooo i want to get to magnet.man i really want it to be time to go to magnet!!!" though u were barely in your first block.the thing that when you didnt go to magnet you'd be pissed off all day.the thing that when it was friday after school you wanted it to be monday cause you wanted to be at magnet.the thing that when you missed the bus to vmt you'd fucking walk countless blocks (rain or shine) just to get there when you could've easily just gone home since it was closer.the thing that made you cry the last day of first semester and second semester because you werent gonna be at magnet in a long time.i remember last year EVERYONE hugged EVERYONE even if you didnt know that person very well.we'd act silly and not be ashamed of it.we'd mess around and teachers werent as bitchy about it. WE HAD FUN...but now it seems that people are too busy or have too much of a reputation or pride to even wave at you or notice you when you're down.i remember last year when someone was sad everyone would try their best to cheer them up and give them countless hugs now if someone sees you sad they're like "you're always sad get over it.you cry for everything.you're such a wimp.you're just doing it for the attention.stop being so emo." and you barely get a wave or they take advantage that you're down.actually you're even lucky if they notice and say anything at all.SO much is missing from that place that i cant bring back.all the above statements are what kept me from staying there and i no longer have any of them so whats the use of staying?i dont want to get out of vmt cause then id be stuck at ghetto martin all day not to mention having transportation problems since vmt is 3 blocks from my house and martin is further.so far im just thinking about it.i REALLY dont know yet.i havent come to a final decision.