my apology
i'd like to apologize for that entry i made where i was saying farewell to everyone.i prolly freaked out or maybe even worried some people.i have to say i was going through a really hard time(and still am and have for a long time but im reacting to it in a different manner) and i looked to the wrong place(or thing actually) for help. i realized that doing what i did was a permanent thing and a bad one at that. im gonna be straight forward with you guys cause i think u guys deserve a clear definite explantion for my weird actions that being of saying goodbye and going to some place and not coming back.also cause i need to let it out of my system.i dont want ppl to think im putting it as public to get attention or pity but to me putting it in private really doesnt mean "letting it out".
i tried to commit suicide by overdosing with sleeping pills.i know it was a really stupid thing to do and shit im even lucky(i thank god and everyone in heaven for that) i woke up after i got knocked out. as you can see i have a serious depression problem. you're prolly thinking i should get help but now these days u cant even have a common cold without being knocked up on meds.i got stocked up with all kinds of meds when the doc said i had amoebas and ulcers which was just bullshit to rip me and my insurance off. and counseling wont help cause i know what they're gonna tell me and thats not what i want.i cant turn to friends cause they know what my problem is and they're very against it and always telling me to give him up.it might seem confusing but the same guy that made me think about suicide is the same guy who made me realize what a dumbass thing i was doing.
im really and truly sorry.i prolly let some people down and again i am sorry.i just hope u all can forgive me for my really idiotic actions but if you dont i completely understand.
i tried to commit suicide by overdosing with sleeping pills.i know it was a really stupid thing to do and shit im even lucky(i thank god and everyone in heaven for that) i woke up after i got knocked out. as you can see i have a serious depression problem. you're prolly thinking i should get help but now these days u cant even have a common cold without being knocked up on meds.i got stocked up with all kinds of meds when the doc said i had amoebas and ulcers which was just bullshit to rip me and my insurance off. and counseling wont help cause i know what they're gonna tell me and thats not what i want.i cant turn to friends cause they know what my problem is and they're very against it and always telling me to give him up.it might seem confusing but the same guy that made me think about suicide is the same guy who made me realize what a dumbass thing i was doing.
im really and truly sorry.i prolly let some people down and again i am sorry.i just hope u all can forgive me for my really idiotic actions but if you dont i completely understand.