im sooo bored...
well yea..today is saturday...i didnt do anything...anna went to the tattoo expo...i was gonna go...but i didnt want to pay 19 bucks for it...so i stayed home all day...did nothing..well i did homework...for like 5 hours...lol...theres nothing to do online...no one to talk to...except my bro...idk...ive been feeling rele weird lately...im so confused...im tired of everything...ive just been feeling rele blue lately...like i just havent been feeling happy about anything...i mean my birthday is soon..but im not excited...im gonna have my test for my license soon...i made the appointment alraedy...its cool that ill be driving...but im not gonna be able to drive with ppl...idk...its weird....idk but i kinda feel like im depressed...but why? is there a reason for me to be depressed? at work yesterday everyone kept asking if something was wrong...they said i was as "vibrant" as before...idk...i havent done drugs in a while...maybe i should start that up again? all i have time for is work and school...maybe thats what killing me...but idk...its better than being home bored...like today...i havent been feeling to good about myself either...i got a little self esteem when i just got my hair done...and all through break...but than i came to school...and it all my self esteem is gone...i look at myself in the mirror and all i see is shit...i feel yucky in my skin...idk whats going on...i was so happy to not go to school...i just dotn have any...argh...whats the word im looking for...i can only think of it in spanish...animo...like strength...or interest...idk...but yea...so if u see me all like weird dotn think its cause im mad or w/e...its just that im lost...confused...idk what i need or want...ugh...the more i think about it...the more i hate it...the more i hate myself...ugh i feel stupid for writing this in here...but w/e...its not like ppl read this...but yea..well im bored....and my head hurts...so ill end it here...
-Maggie
-Maggie