just a poem

[incubissins]

You know who you are for these pangs were given by you,
While I stay awake all night I wonder if you're sleepless too.
Too tired from this struggle I seek for serenity,
I accept ofttimes the lapse caused by me.
Mandated to live today as if it were my last,
But no word or sunset no lustful trespass can sum up my past.
My heartbeats are exhausted so take them away,
My movements are hollow I have no reason to stay.
Once upon a time I was an innocent but depraved,
A slave to this hunger for avengement I couldn't satiate.
Forgiveness never crossed my soul till it was too tainted,
I have no one left to blame for the sinful world I painted.
I can reveal where I was wrong so I guess I am the better man,
Where as you can't face your mistakes and I can.
You pushed me into this spiral from which I've never escaped,
For years I was the one molested and raped.
Return to me my childhood moments where I should have had innocence,
If you can't do that at least be the man and confess.
You've defeated me and I lost the will to live,
Bur please don't steal way my ability to forgive.