only god knows how badly i wanted to understand

[incorrectlymade]

i cried for the first time in years. i mean, i really cried, tears, snot, hyperventilating and all. i was drunk and i needed to let that part of my past go. so you saw my weakness, you saw what you did to me. but you're not to blame. we're both getting so much older now.

this is the first time that i haven't been ashamed of letting someone see the pain they caused. you needed to see it. you needed to understand.