un1tyasone: if you need somone by your side ill be there, i cant let you take that road. i need you
I slept over Kyle's Saturday night.It was cute. We talked and watched scary movies. Then we woke up and had to meet my mom at JCPenny's for that stupid sale thing, and we tried going bathingsuit shopping. I cried in the middle of the store, luckily I had my huge sunglasses to shield me. My mom gave me a hug, and bought me some shorts. *sigh* Then we met up with Ken, got our TigerArmy/Unseen tickets, and embarked on a very important day. First it was Frisbee, and I'm master, duh. Then we all hung out at Kyles house, we got slushies and went to pick up Mat from work, TWO HOURS EARLY.
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That's when it all began. I walked outside to check if Kyle's car was alright, and when I got back inside Ken and Kyle had started fighting. So I sat on the other side of the booth, and hunched down, and everything that was going on got me to cry silently, because I never want to see them fight. Then came the highlight of the argument where both of them were very angry, and just like a rollercoaster Ken started venting, and Kyle (who had gotten up) sat back down next to me, and vented back, and they both started crying too. The bowed heads, met and clasped hands and said somethings that just might change my life forever. They huged, and I slumped even further into the corner, feeling like I was on the outside of a very beautiful story, just reading it. Then I got drawn into it when Kyle gave me a hug. I told them about my mom, and how I'm not going anywhere in life, and about how I can't be a part of my art work like they are with their music. And Ken looked me straight in the eye and told me that I'm a good person with a lot of talent.
"When I shit on you, I expected you to shit on me back. But you didn't. You waited for it all to blow over and you were there for me. No one's ever done that for me before... We're taking you with us, it's up to you whether or not you want to ride this wave all the way to the shore, or branch off and go in your own direction."
"I'm taking you with me. We're all going along for the ride."
"Then let's ride it all the way into the fucking sand."
I don't think I'm ever going to forget this night, because it was one of those nights where I've gained all of the hope I'd been losing the past couple of days. For all the blood that's been shed, these are the bandages that keep things together.
I'm ready for the ride of my life. And I'm not going it alone.