life
wow so boy have times changed.. its not 3 months after my last post and it let me tell ya it def makes me laugh. toga party haha lets just say condescending bitches that will never change. and hmm boys that have no balls and act like they are god.. but now that thats off of my chest..life is good. no more stress of boys ha well kinda lol..heading up to UCF in 22 and counting.. im really excited.. kinda... mayb.. i dunno . lets just say i was and now i am rethinking it. i might just gothere one year and end up at like UF or FSU .. everyone else thinks that i should have gone there anyway might as well make other people happy right? or at least go to a school where the guys say i should be... ha i.e. unf? lol... yea dif story diff day. i dunno i guess everything that i was soo happy about three months ago has completely smacked me in the face for. the one person who i thought understood. who i thought got it and realized the wrong in everything ended up being one of them. so i guess good riddence? i dunno i cant just do that. bc the wrong in everything has and will follow me to school i already kno this. so i guess the point is u must just manipulate it and make it fit ur life how u want it to.. life it what u make of it right? i mean really whose life is every perfect? people who u love are going to cheat on u back stab u. be selfish self service and two faced. ooh well stupid me i guess i should have known that u cant change genetics.. every boy is the same and they will always be the same.. i mean look at all my friends each one of them can tell u how they do it best. but in the end they all get fucked over too.. the ending is always the same. so y waist ur time trying to fix sumthing when u kno it will never work. i guess i have wishful thinking..or mayb i am just a hopeless romantic ha who would have thought..i kno the one person who could have guessed lol... o well mayb next year will be better. mayb the guys i meet wont be gay and wont kiss there own hand when i meet them. mayb there will be a guy who will be a gentlemen and go to a musical just to be with me. they will go to a movie even if they dont want to see it. they can sit under the stars and just talk. with no other hidden agenda. no fakenesss involved. I want a boy that knows who they are and can be honest with themselves and with me. and most of all the most important thing i want a guy that can stand up for me against other girls... especially ones that say they are ur friends say they are going to help u win the boy back.. plan things with him so u can be there. and then oh yeah take a trip and go see him at school and fucking lie to me about it. or wait hmm even better tell him lies about me so she cant get with him.. i love those girls they are amazing let me tell.. just never happy with one boy especially on top of it when they have there own bf oh yeah thats right they both cheat on each other ha but wait u can forgive that bc thast right he does it too wow what trust!! i mean i guess that works since ya kno when u go to parties u can get within inches of a boys face and say ohh my bf cheats on me make out with me bc ur soo fucking hot! oh yeah and then wake up with a guy who likes me and the next day apologizes bc he thought it was me that crawled into bed with me. i want a guy that can stand up for me against a girl like that.. i mean is it really THAT hard.. apparently it was... fuck