Thingy things
Random thoughts:
If your greatest talent is being young and attractive, the happiest times in your life will be memories by the time you're 10 years out of puberty and then you will be boring and sad for like another 50 years.
I still wave at fire trucks. Well, at firemen in fire trucks.
The best revenge against jerks who actively hope and work for your destruction is to live a healthy, happy and well balanced life, to the best of your ability.
My 30th birthday party was the most fun I've had at a party in my honor since my batmitzvah. I fed 60 people vegan pizza and vegan meatballs, got hugs from everyone and my hair looked really good. I wish I could turn 30 again next year. Haw!
I burn 1.2 calories a minute while I'm sleeping or sitting in front of a computer. I burn 12.6 calories per minute on a 5mph jog on a treadmill. I'm learning to love that hamster wheel.
While I was collecting eggs this morning, my chickens ate my peanut butter toast out of my hand. I love them so hard. Every morning I pick them up and hug them and kiss their ears and smell their feathers. Some day we will have goats too, and then I will be able to eat goat cheese again. It is the cheese I miss most of all since I stopped the dairy.
I have stopped a lot of things so far this year, some intentionally and some by accident. At the new year I stopped taking nicotine lozenges after 4 years of using them heavily. That was an intentional choice because it was embarrassing, expensive, and bad for me. I am very proud of the fact that I am done with them. I stopped eating dairy/eggs that don't come from my chickens after Taxi and Number Four died, also in January. After crying every day when I woke up, I figured that it just wasn't worth it to me to do something that brings misery and death to thousands and thousands of chickens when the sickness and death of one made me so terribly sad. I am really really happy with my choice. Convenience is overrated, feeling like you're living an authentic life is priceless for me.
I stopped taking anti-anxiety medication every day after taking the meds for around 3 years straight. This was mostly an accident, but a happy one. I had tapered down the dose for a while, fell asleep without it altogether for a couple of nights in a row and just decided that I wasn't going to use it as a regular sleep aid any more. Again, this is something I wouldn't hesitate to use again if I needed it, but it's really very good to not need it.
I've stopped washing my face. This has helped my skin immensely. The reason I've been able to do this is because I don't wear make up, so I'm not all covered in goop all the time, so I don't need to wash all the goop off which makes my skin dry and then oily. So, I'm just a normal amount of oily all the time, but it looks really good. I have had to let go of the joy of exfoliation though. :(
I stopped going to therapy around the end of last year. This is after 4 years of therapy once or twice a week. I'm actually feeling really good without it. Something I learned in therapy is that 99% of happiness is perspective, and I think I was using a lot of that time to focus on all the shitty things I could think of, and that wasn't helping me by the end of it. I truly believe that therapy helped make my life something worth living simply by teaching me how to live it better, and I wouldn't hesitate to go back if I needed to do so, but it's nice to be able to go about my business without it, honestly.
CON is on the horizon. Yoga is an increasingly amazing and beautiful part of my life. Volleyball is great. My friends are so awesome they make my heart ache. Ian and I are 4 years into our relationship and are doing well. Life is pretty good right now, and that's wonderful. I hope you all are the same, and if you're not, you should call me so I can listen to what's going on and care and tell you how much I love you, because I do. Like whoa.
If your greatest talent is being young and attractive, the happiest times in your life will be memories by the time you're 10 years out of puberty and then you will be boring and sad for like another 50 years.
I still wave at fire trucks. Well, at firemen in fire trucks.
The best revenge against jerks who actively hope and work for your destruction is to live a healthy, happy and well balanced life, to the best of your ability.
My 30th birthday party was the most fun I've had at a party in my honor since my batmitzvah. I fed 60 people vegan pizza and vegan meatballs, got hugs from everyone and my hair looked really good. I wish I could turn 30 again next year. Haw!
I burn 1.2 calories a minute while I'm sleeping or sitting in front of a computer. I burn 12.6 calories per minute on a 5mph jog on a treadmill. I'm learning to love that hamster wheel.
While I was collecting eggs this morning, my chickens ate my peanut butter toast out of my hand. I love them so hard. Every morning I pick them up and hug them and kiss their ears and smell their feathers. Some day we will have goats too, and then I will be able to eat goat cheese again. It is the cheese I miss most of all since I stopped the dairy.
I have stopped a lot of things so far this year, some intentionally and some by accident. At the new year I stopped taking nicotine lozenges after 4 years of using them heavily. That was an intentional choice because it was embarrassing, expensive, and bad for me. I am very proud of the fact that I am done with them. I stopped eating dairy/eggs that don't come from my chickens after Taxi and Number Four died, also in January. After crying every day when I woke up, I figured that it just wasn't worth it to me to do something that brings misery and death to thousands and thousands of chickens when the sickness and death of one made me so terribly sad. I am really really happy with my choice. Convenience is overrated, feeling like you're living an authentic life is priceless for me.
I stopped taking anti-anxiety medication every day after taking the meds for around 3 years straight. This was mostly an accident, but a happy one. I had tapered down the dose for a while, fell asleep without it altogether for a couple of nights in a row and just decided that I wasn't going to use it as a regular sleep aid any more. Again, this is something I wouldn't hesitate to use again if I needed it, but it's really very good to not need it.
I've stopped washing my face. This has helped my skin immensely. The reason I've been able to do this is because I don't wear make up, so I'm not all covered in goop all the time, so I don't need to wash all the goop off which makes my skin dry and then oily. So, I'm just a normal amount of oily all the time, but it looks really good. I have had to let go of the joy of exfoliation though. :(
I stopped going to therapy around the end of last year. This is after 4 years of therapy once or twice a week. I'm actually feeling really good without it. Something I learned in therapy is that 99% of happiness is perspective, and I think I was using a lot of that time to focus on all the shitty things I could think of, and that wasn't helping me by the end of it. I truly believe that therapy helped make my life something worth living simply by teaching me how to live it better, and I wouldn't hesitate to go back if I needed to do so, but it's nice to be able to go about my business without it, honestly.
CON is on the horizon. Yoga is an increasingly amazing and beautiful part of my life. Volleyball is great. My friends are so awesome they make my heart ache. Ian and I are 4 years into our relationship and are doing well. Life is pretty good right now, and that's wonderful. I hope you all are the same, and if you're not, you should call me so I can listen to what's going on and care and tell you how much I love you, because I do. Like whoa.