OOTD (that was rejected from fatshionista)
hey everyone. i feel kind of shitty about myself at the moment. you see, i am now officially not fat enough for fatshionista. even though i'm too fat for like....everything else. haha.
i am:
5'11"
~250 lbs (probably closer to 260 atm)
if i wore pants, they would be an 18 (i assume, because the 16 pants i have aren't fitting atm) but i still wear 16s in some dresses. i generally wear between size XL and XXL or a 1 or 2 depending on the style in torrid clothes. (i do wear size L in old navy leggings, but that's because i prefer to size down since my legs are proportionally smaller and i have a pretty flat ass.)
my measurements are around 49-40-49
i honestly have no idea on what planet this makes me not fat.
i posted this outfit i wore today to fatshionista and it was rejected. i was told that i am not fat enough. the reasons sited were those darn size L leggings (and my XL dress...which is jersey knit and from old navy...king of vanity sizes). no mention was made of my 2XL cardigan. my height was also given as a reason. because apparently being taller and having your weight be distributed differently somehow makes you less fat? i beg to differ, but whatever.
you know, i get called fat on the street fairly regularly. i live in new york, it comes with the territory. sometimes it's a dude catcalling me and telling me he "likes 'em big". i even got the embarrassing "more cushin' for the pushin'" line recently. no, really.
when somebody bumps me or vice versa on the street, i am always reminded what a fat bitch i am. but like, tell me something i don't know.
to be honest, getting rejected from a supposedly posi and body-accepting community is bothering me more than any stupid remark i have gotten on the street or whatever. i genuinely feel like shit for having my body judged like it was. it's been a long time since something somebody else did/said has made me feel shitty about myself. (yeah, i have days where i feel like crap about myself, but it always comes from myself. i normally could care less what anybody thinks of me.
anyway, i'm rambling. so i'll just post my OOTD here in the hopes that it is accepted somewhere. haha.
headband- f21
necklace- h&m
cardigan- f21/faith21 (2X)
dress- ON (XL)
tank top under the dress- ON (i think it's an XL, but it's a tagless one and the printing has worn off)
belt- from a 2X faith21 dress. i ended up taking it off though.
leggings- ON (L-as i said i size down because my depressing lack of butt)
booties- payless (11)
so. yeah. hi, inbetweenies.
ETA-
since i haven't posted an OOTD here before, here is another pic with my face!:
i am:
5'11"
~250 lbs (probably closer to 260 atm)
if i wore pants, they would be an 18 (i assume, because the 16 pants i have aren't fitting atm) but i still wear 16s in some dresses. i generally wear between size XL and XXL or a 1 or 2 depending on the style in torrid clothes. (i do wear size L in old navy leggings, but that's because i prefer to size down since my legs are proportionally smaller and i have a pretty flat ass.)
my measurements are around 49-40-49
i honestly have no idea on what planet this makes me not fat.
i posted this outfit i wore today to fatshionista and it was rejected. i was told that i am not fat enough. the reasons sited were those darn size L leggings (and my XL dress...which is jersey knit and from old navy...king of vanity sizes). no mention was made of my 2XL cardigan. my height was also given as a reason. because apparently being taller and having your weight be distributed differently somehow makes you less fat? i beg to differ, but whatever.
you know, i get called fat on the street fairly regularly. i live in new york, it comes with the territory. sometimes it's a dude catcalling me and telling me he "likes 'em big". i even got the embarrassing "more cushin' for the pushin'" line recently. no, really.
when somebody bumps me or vice versa on the street, i am always reminded what a fat bitch i am. but like, tell me something i don't know.
to be honest, getting rejected from a supposedly posi and body-accepting community is bothering me more than any stupid remark i have gotten on the street or whatever. i genuinely feel like shit for having my body judged like it was. it's been a long time since something somebody else did/said has made me feel shitty about myself. (yeah, i have days where i feel like crap about myself, but it always comes from myself. i normally could care less what anybody thinks of me.
anyway, i'm rambling. so i'll just post my OOTD here in the hopes that it is accepted somewhere. haha.
headband- f21
necklace- h&m
cardigan- f21/faith21 (2X)
dress- ON (XL)
tank top under the dress- ON (i think it's an XL, but it's a tagless one and the printing has worn off)
belt- from a 2X faith21 dress. i ended up taking it off though.
leggings- ON (L-as i said i size down because my depressing lack of butt)
booties- payless (11)
so. yeah. hi, inbetweenies.
ETA-
since i haven't posted an OOTD here before, here is another pic with my face!: