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What a Blah-ze weekend. I didn't want to go up to Madison because I needed some personal time. I'm just so tired of the constant traveling to see Mike, and of the feeling like I should be entertaining when he travels to be here. Unfortunately I'll be in OH next week and obviously not seeing him, so that kind of sucks. When I said I wanted time to just take care of my life and get it in order, I didn't mean that I wanted to be alone! Chrissy ended up not being able to make it down (It's ok, really it is, I understand) so I've just been spending all my time with my parents. It was nice - up until Saturday around noon. Friday was ok but by afternoon yesterday I was so aggravated. I played with the idea of just packing up my bags and going to Madison for the night, but that wasn't a good idea because really smelly smoke is coming from my car engine whenever the radiator is on. Going in the shop AGAIN on Monday. I think I may be ok to drive locally without heat, but a long highway drive is unwise. Also I didn't really want to travel, I just needed to get away from mannerisms that were getting under my skin. Now, I think Mike is upset with me or something. I don't know. I probably read way too deeply into actions and lack of actions. So, instead of seeing a single friend this weekend, I've given the dog a bath when the weather was nice, made several pairs of earrings, seen my highschool win a football game and proceed to state championship (while being thankful I was no longer a teenager), and found out that I can currently wear the smallest pant size I've ever been at. That's pretty much it. So stuff has been relatively satisfying, but at the same time... what's the point of anything when you feel lonely?