Not so afraid to fall...
I can feel myself falling hard. I want this so badly but I don't want things to go wrong. There is a great need in my life for him, now. He is needed for me to feel whole every day. He keeps me positive. He says that if I fall, he will catch me. No one else has ever offered. I'm letting go, now, of what was never meant to be with Russell. I cared for him very much. Both of us see, now, that we could not have spent the rest of our lives together happily and in love. Adam makes me feel like it's OK to commit. I'm ready and willing to wait for him. I want both of us to feel that it's the right thing for us both, though. If it embarrasses you that I put your name here I'll delete it, but I needed to write this down. I wrote it in my own journal, but I wish for everyone to know. I want my friends to see that I am sincerely hopeful and happy about something and someone for once. I know that we already talked, but I'd like to talk with you again.