"We were meant to live for so much more.."
I'm not sure what all of these decisions are leading up to. I'm not sure if all of them will hurt someone or make someone very happy. I hope that I hurt no one in the process of beginning my new life. I love some people. I care for some people. But...I also want to be loved and taken care of. Sometimes, I don't feel it at all. I blame that on myself. I don't love myself and lately, it has become a problem. I have to argue with myself to come to conclusions about things. I have to beat the hell out of myself just to make myself feel better, because that's what I know. I am pathetic in that I cannot just be happy with who I am and what I have become. I have a real problem with myself. Maybe I should just finish this fight, because I started it. Still...I know not how.