Yeah. . .
So anyway, I'm still depressed. And sitting at home all the fucking time isn't helping. So I try and go out. Easier said than done! A realization that one needs friends to go out successfully. And friends I do not have.
I hung out with Allison today, she's little. hahaha, but oh so very cute. Her friend, Becka I believe her name was (bad with names), was awesome and danced to bad music in the car like a mad woman. It was funny and I laughed. It was awkward cause they were smoking, and that bothers me. It's such a turn off. Anyway, I had fun, I was making fun of her and messing with her all day. Yeah. . .
Yesternight I was wandering around the net and got a message from a girl from Marina. She's beautiful, and yeah. I don't know it's weird cause of how we first talked. Why can't I seem to make friends. Fuck shit fuck fuck shit.
Anyway, I don't know what to do or what to think anymore, everday seems to be a bigger waste of time than the last. And my mind gets more and more wrapped around things I don't understand and can't do anything about. I'm fucking pissed and I feel like I'm going to have a fucking heart attack.
Things I KNOW I want, I had, and lost. And feel strongly that I was fucking cheated out of it, and I want vengeance on the people that put me in the possition that caused me to lose that. Other than that, I don't knwo what the hell I'm doing. Wish me luck.
I hung out with Allison today, she's little. hahaha, but oh so very cute. Her friend, Becka I believe her name was (bad with names), was awesome and danced to bad music in the car like a mad woman. It was funny and I laughed. It was awkward cause they were smoking, and that bothers me. It's such a turn off. Anyway, I had fun, I was making fun of her and messing with her all day. Yeah. . .
Yesternight I was wandering around the net and got a message from a girl from Marina. She's beautiful, and yeah. I don't know it's weird cause of how we first talked. Why can't I seem to make friends. Fuck shit fuck fuck shit.
Anyway, I don't know what to do or what to think anymore, everday seems to be a bigger waste of time than the last. And my mind gets more and more wrapped around things I don't understand and can't do anything about. I'm fucking pissed and I feel like I'm going to have a fucking heart attack.
Things I KNOW I want, I had, and lost. And feel strongly that I was fucking cheated out of it, and I want vengeance on the people that put me in the possition that caused me to lose that. Other than that, I don't knwo what the hell I'm doing. Wish me luck.