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God damn it's been a long time. Hello all. After almost two months, I am back. I don't know if it will be another two months before I come back again, but I'll be ever watchful.
I guess my absence is in part that despite things that might be happening to me, I don't have much to say. And what I do have to say, has already been said, and I still have this overwhelming idea that no one really wants to hear it again, if they even wanted to hear it in the first place. Perhaps it is true, perhaps I'm just pessimistic like that. But I don't feel as if too many people really care about me and what is going on in my life. There are those that do, and you know who you are, and hopefully that number of people that know who they are, are much larger in number than I believe them to be. I know there are some at least, and that thought makes my current situtation and mood much better. Sadly though, I still spend way too much time by myself and my mind. Neither of which I find to be taht great to spend time with alone, inner demons and what not.
I'm still generally pretty bored, and watch movies at an unhealthy rate, though I am hella stoked at the next few months DVD line-up. Lots of great movies are on their way to my DVD cabinet. I watched a movie with a girl in a semi-romantic setting last week. This brought about quite a few interesting feelings. To sum it all up, cause I dont' want to go into details, I wish to have someone to spend more romantic movie watching exploits with. On top of perhaps other romantic, semi-romantic, just-wanting-to-spend-time-in-a-romantic-or-semi-romantic-way, exploits. Wish me luck as at the moment, I'm starting at ground zero. I don't know if that is a good or a bad thing, but it's a thing, of some nature, good or bad, and it is mine.
I'm trying to force myself to write at least an hour a day, and exercise for at least an hour a day. So far, I haven't exercised or writen a word (other than this, which doesn't count), but I'm keeping at it. Wish me luck.
ONWARD HO!!!
-managment
I guess my absence is in part that despite things that might be happening to me, I don't have much to say. And what I do have to say, has already been said, and I still have this overwhelming idea that no one really wants to hear it again, if they even wanted to hear it in the first place. Perhaps it is true, perhaps I'm just pessimistic like that. But I don't feel as if too many people really care about me and what is going on in my life. There are those that do, and you know who you are, and hopefully that number of people that know who they are, are much larger in number than I believe them to be. I know there are some at least, and that thought makes my current situtation and mood much better. Sadly though, I still spend way too much time by myself and my mind. Neither of which I find to be taht great to spend time with alone, inner demons and what not.
I'm still generally pretty bored, and watch movies at an unhealthy rate, though I am hella stoked at the next few months DVD line-up. Lots of great movies are on their way to my DVD cabinet. I watched a movie with a girl in a semi-romantic setting last week. This brought about quite a few interesting feelings. To sum it all up, cause I dont' want to go into details, I wish to have someone to spend more romantic movie watching exploits with. On top of perhaps other romantic, semi-romantic, just-wanting-to-spend-time-in-a-romantic-or-semi-romantic-way, exploits. Wish me luck as at the moment, I'm starting at ground zero. I don't know if that is a good or a bad thing, but it's a thing, of some nature, good or bad, and it is mine.
I'm trying to force myself to write at least an hour a day, and exercise for at least an hour a day. So far, I haven't exercised or writen a word (other than this, which doesn't count), but I'm keeping at it. Wish me luck.
ONWARD HO!!!
-managment