Officially unemployed
After much dilly-dallying and racking my brains for more stuff to put in it (or not include) I sent out my first resume yesterday. And then just thinking about the prospect of having to work made me so tired I took a nap.
Kidding. Actually, I reserved the entire day yesterday for painting but I couldn't. It was so frustrating. Sitting there with a blank piece of paper and a loaded paintbrush, which is usually very exciting for me, yesterday I just sat there staring, thinking, I am so uninspired, why do I not want to do this? I went back to my room and lay down on the bed. What do I want to do? Staring at the blank screen in front of me, I knew the answer. I JUST WANT TO WATCH TV!!! Gadammit. This is wayyy harder than I thought. I mean, it's just TV. I hardly watched at all when I was still working. Except for the odd cartoon in the morning, and some Desperate Housewives and House. Now I'm missing American Idol, the new season of CSI, not to mention all the showbiz chismis. Anyway, I couldn't watch TV so I opened a book. Maganda. But it made me sleepy and I slept the afternoon away. I woke up and I didn't want the day to be a total waste so I brought Lia and her Lola and Yaya to Powerplant where we went shopping for a gift for Mike's baby cousin who will be baptized on Sunday.
It's crazy how Lia loves the mall. Luuuurves it. She ran around the toy store shouting Ball! Ball! (except she was actually saying Bo! Bo!) and then when we went to the baby store, she wouldn't leave the little keyboard alone. She was dancing and playing piano and talking into the microphone. All the salesladies were fawning over her. When it was time to leave, she cried. But she quickly perked up at the other stores window displays, identifying apples and oranges as "yumyum!" and she saw a lolo sitting at a cafe and when the lolo extended his hand to her, she gave him five. That girl. She has the potential to be a baby mall rat. What do you call a baby rat? In Filipino, it's bubwit. Mall Bubwit. Nice new name for her website.
Carlo emailed from the US and said he was accepted into Boston University as well. He's now in St. Louis for his interview with Washington University. Grabe. Grabe ha. We're so proud of him. Three prestigious universities to choose from. I vote Boston. Because it's not "nowhere," that is, it's near enough to New York to be "somewhere." But mostly because it has the best website. Iowa's homepage shows a person trudging in the snow. Who would want to go to school there? Washington, it's like a castle facade. But hello, not very well photoshopped flowers in the foreground. Tsk tsk. Boston! Has this this beautiful aerial view of a lovely campus, and you can flip pages to see pics and videos of scientists and students and places you can eat and shop and go to. My kind of university! As if ako yung papasok doon. It will be more expensive to live there of course. But maybe they will offer him more in terms of financial aid. Go Carlo! Go for the money!
Michelle and Jeline are also waiting for acceptance letters from universities in the States. Norman will be finished with his Master's Degree this March and is exploring his prospects... I think he had an interview recently. Everyone else's lives seem to be HAPPENING. As I was telling Jeline yesterday through chat. I really have to DO SOMETHING already. My conversation is degenerating and I'm running out of creative juice. At night, I can't sleep unless I've watched some Baby Einstein with Lia. And now I'm going to Powerplant just so I was able to do something with my day! ARgh!
So I've applied for a job, and hope I get accepted. But really, I don't know what I want more. To get that job, or to have another baby. Because if I get a job, does that mean I have to defer having my next child? And if I get pregnant, does that mean I stop looking for a job? Unahan na lang siguro. (whichever comes first, I guess) But then, why do they have to be mutually exclusive? Why not be a working mom? Because I want to give the next baby as much attention as Lia got. Hm. Bahala na.
Kidding. Actually, I reserved the entire day yesterday for painting but I couldn't. It was so frustrating. Sitting there with a blank piece of paper and a loaded paintbrush, which is usually very exciting for me, yesterday I just sat there staring, thinking, I am so uninspired, why do I not want to do this? I went back to my room and lay down on the bed. What do I want to do? Staring at the blank screen in front of me, I knew the answer. I JUST WANT TO WATCH TV!!! Gadammit. This is wayyy harder than I thought. I mean, it's just TV. I hardly watched at all when I was still working. Except for the odd cartoon in the morning, and some Desperate Housewives and House. Now I'm missing American Idol, the new season of CSI, not to mention all the showbiz chismis. Anyway, I couldn't watch TV so I opened a book. Maganda. But it made me sleepy and I slept the afternoon away. I woke up and I didn't want the day to be a total waste so I brought Lia and her Lola and Yaya to Powerplant where we went shopping for a gift for Mike's baby cousin who will be baptized on Sunday.
It's crazy how Lia loves the mall. Luuuurves it. She ran around the toy store shouting Ball! Ball! (except she was actually saying Bo! Bo!) and then when we went to the baby store, she wouldn't leave the little keyboard alone. She was dancing and playing piano and talking into the microphone. All the salesladies were fawning over her. When it was time to leave, she cried. But she quickly perked up at the other stores window displays, identifying apples and oranges as "yumyum!" and she saw a lolo sitting at a cafe and when the lolo extended his hand to her, she gave him five. That girl. She has the potential to be a baby mall rat. What do you call a baby rat? In Filipino, it's bubwit. Mall Bubwit. Nice new name for her website.
Carlo emailed from the US and said he was accepted into Boston University as well. He's now in St. Louis for his interview with Washington University. Grabe. Grabe ha. We're so proud of him. Three prestigious universities to choose from. I vote Boston. Because it's not "nowhere," that is, it's near enough to New York to be "somewhere." But mostly because it has the best website. Iowa's homepage shows a person trudging in the snow. Who would want to go to school there? Washington, it's like a castle facade. But hello, not very well photoshopped flowers in the foreground. Tsk tsk. Boston! Has this this beautiful aerial view of a lovely campus, and you can flip pages to see pics and videos of scientists and students and places you can eat and shop and go to. My kind of university! As if ako yung papasok doon. It will be more expensive to live there of course. But maybe they will offer him more in terms of financial aid. Go Carlo! Go for the money!
Michelle and Jeline are also waiting for acceptance letters from universities in the States. Norman will be finished with his Master's Degree this March and is exploring his prospects... I think he had an interview recently. Everyone else's lives seem to be HAPPENING. As I was telling Jeline yesterday through chat. I really have to DO SOMETHING already. My conversation is degenerating and I'm running out of creative juice. At night, I can't sleep unless I've watched some Baby Einstein with Lia. And now I'm going to Powerplant just so I was able to do something with my day! ARgh!
So I've applied for a job, and hope I get accepted. But really, I don't know what I want more. To get that job, or to have another baby. Because if I get a job, does that mean I have to defer having my next child? And if I get pregnant, does that mean I stop looking for a job? Unahan na lang siguro. (whichever comes first, I guess) But then, why do they have to be mutually exclusive? Why not be a working mom? Because I want to give the next baby as much attention as Lia got. Hm. Bahala na.