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Im not trying to make this about me but i just havent been the same since you left.
I miss you so much and all i can think about is how much i regret.
I wish i paid more attention to you and spent more time with you and came to see you in the hospital when i was in london and hugged you goodbye longer and listened to more music and acted less weird at the thai resturant and held your hand when we saw the lightning orb on the jungle gym and came to the river with you late at night and dragged you around less and told you i loved you more (or at all i cant even remember if i ever did).
I wish i never took you for granted and i regret so much that i did.
You were the kindest person ever to me. You understood me like no one ever has.
I wonder if you thought of me at the end. I wonder if it was good or bad. I wonder if you wished i was there with you. Or if yoy hated me. Im so sorry. Im so sorry im so sorry im so sorry.
I loved you so much and i always will. I always always always will.