DONE WITH EVERYTHING.
soo ive never really 'vented' in one of these things before..but im about to. I am so incrediablity SICK of everything here..of school, of my friends, of my family, of charlotte north carolina. The day i get the hell out of here is going to be the best day of my life..and that will be the day i turn 18. mark me on my word. anyways...One of my main concerns right now..is my friendship with someone. She means the world to me..and she knows it. ever since this summer we stopped hanging out a lot..and it sucked..and then..she found a boyfriend..and i was happy for her...i hadnt seen her that happy in a while..and it made me feel good to know she was happy. It didnt really help that her boyfriend isnt to fond of me...apparently im too prissy for him. Me and her rarely see each other at school..so when we do its exciting..well everytime i see her know..she cant even stop to talk to me for 2 seconds b/c she has to go see her boyfriend..who isnt really worrying about her right that second cause he's with his friends..or at least everything i am saying is in MY point of view and what i see. Then..i started seeing her at pep rallys...and she couldn't even sit with me...b/c she had to go sit with him..and if most of you know me..i dont like north...i tend to not get to close with the girls from north...no real reason..well yeah there is a reason..but its MY preference just to go to school learn.and come home..and not get mixed in with the stupid drama of the north mecks sluts. But anyways...this whole not even being able to talk to me started happeing at the games also..and everywell else..and im not even sure if she KNEW that it was going on..but i really hurt..b/c shes the only real thing i got in this world..and shes not even there anymore. I cant make plans with her..because somehow her boyfriend always comes into the picture..wiether its..they had plans...or he gets off work at this time..and blah blah blah. All i know..is that i miss my best friend way to much to express. and i just really hope she understand where im coming from...and that i love her more than her boyfriend does. Im always gonna be there for her...he may not be..and she needs to realize that and be open to it. SO..anyways..as i sit at home again...with nothing to do..b/c everyone and their dad seems to be too busy for me...i decided to vent into this thing..and there soo much more that i have to talk about...but this is my main concern. I'm so ready to just get out of here..no offense to anyone..but right now at this point..there isnt really anyone i miss if i went away...or that would miss me. Its almost like..its for the better. I really dont need anyone else in this world but myself...but its nice to have a few people who you can always fall back on and lean on if you need them..but i've had to do with out them all my life..and im pretty well off on my own. So i think im gonna stop venting now..b/c its obvously not going to change anything..sooo im gonna go sit around and do nothing. goodbye.