We'll rise above this
In the endless cycle of how I feel towards my ever more distanced ex-lover, Josh, just today I found something that incited the tender feelings of love for him. I know that any attempt for a reconciliation will have to be on his part (as he hasn't made any contact with me for a while), I think that by reflecting on all the good things we had, I can kill the horrid loathing feeling that has arisen originally as a means of coping with the loss.
To that end, I will publish another token he left behind on my computer. This, unlike the pictures, totally came from his own free will. It was a sweet note of encouraging words given just a few days shy of a month of us together. While my baby wasn't very grammatically inclined, his words are nonetheless endearing and though the circumstances have changed, I hope that we can someday get back to what he says towards the end, even if only at a platonic level.
what if i just wanted to wright (sic) you a little note on youur (sic) notepad. well i am. I know that things have been kinda hard. But as always i feel that things are going to get better. We are just both at a point in our lifes (sic) where things seem so far out of reach. And i know how hard that can be. We both have our reason (sic). However i feel that we can get throught (sic) it. I look at all the people that i know in my life. And i see them as a beaken (sic) of light in what almost seems to be a black whole (sic) in middle of the city. But i still hold hope. Just because i've seen much bigger things over come. And i feel that we can do the same as all the rest. I see differnc (sic). I feel that if we give it time we can make things much better. So don't feel so helpless. Feel in powered (sic). Because you are. You can do anything. No, we can do any thing we want. I konw (sic) that if we both work at what we want in life i know that we can do it. I know that i want you to be their (sic) in my life forever. And i know thats never going to change. I know it seems almost crazy but i know its true. I know i love you and i want to be with you till the day that i die. And i can only hope you feel the same.
I guess what i'm trying to say is, keep you head up. And keep pushing for what you want. Cause i know you and me want so much more than what we have. And i know we can do it. Because i know between the two of us we can move the world.
love,
Josh-O
It's very sweet and I feel a lot better toward him when I read it. I only hope I can get back to a friendship level with him.
To that end, I will publish another token he left behind on my computer. This, unlike the pictures, totally came from his own free will. It was a sweet note of encouraging words given just a few days shy of a month of us together. While my baby wasn't very grammatically inclined, his words are nonetheless endearing and though the circumstances have changed, I hope that we can someday get back to what he says towards the end, even if only at a platonic level.
what if i just wanted to wright (sic) you a little note on youur (sic) notepad. well i am. I know that things have been kinda hard. But as always i feel that things are going to get better. We are just both at a point in our lifes (sic) where things seem so far out of reach. And i know how hard that can be. We both have our reason (sic). However i feel that we can get throught (sic) it. I look at all the people that i know in my life. And i see them as a beaken (sic) of light in what almost seems to be a black whole (sic) in middle of the city. But i still hold hope. Just because i've seen much bigger things over come. And i feel that we can do the same as all the rest. I see differnc (sic). I feel that if we give it time we can make things much better. So don't feel so helpless. Feel in powered (sic). Because you are. You can do anything. No, we can do any thing we want. I konw (sic) that if we both work at what we want in life i know that we can do it. I know that i want you to be their (sic) in my life forever. And i know thats never going to change. I know it seems almost crazy but i know its true. I know i love you and i want to be with you till the day that i die. And i can only hope you feel the same.
I guess what i'm trying to say is, keep you head up. And keep pushing for what you want. Cause i know you and me want so much more than what we have. And i know we can do it. Because i know between the two of us we can move the world.
love,
Josh-O
It's very sweet and I feel a lot better toward him when I read it. I only hope I can get back to a friendship level with him.