wow. so im like back.
I totally forgot I even had this thing. WOW.
Lots going on...for those of you who would actually care, you probably already know about it.
Me and Zach are over. I talked to him last night. Ive been moved out for months now, but I finally told him we need to separate our bank accounts and get the car in my name. It was so difficult to do, but he made it a little easier by being a huge bag of douche to me. Its so weird though. Six years...down the drain. But I just dont love him anymore. At least, not in the way I SHOULD love him if we were going to stay in a relationship.
I've met somebody in the recent months too. I have no clue how he REALLY feels about me, but I'm completely head over heels for him already, and its only been like 3 weeks. I cant believe it. He keeps sending so many mixed signals I cant even think straight. Im terrified that when he does figure everything out...hes going to tell me we cant be anything more than friends. I know i shouldnt rush right back into a relationship, but i feel so strongly for him. Its crazy. BTW, his name is Andy. Just in case i refrence him later.
I miss my friends. My true friends. I left them all back in FL. =( Katie and I talk most every day still, and we are closer than ever. Chris is still like my little bro. Me and Mandy started talking more recently and Im really happy about that. I missed her so much. We used to talk like every friggin day. shes amazing. Mario and I still talk, not as much as we should, but we try. And thats what counts.
Uhm...Im quite uncomfortable right now. this is probably tmi..but its my damn journal so yea lol I have a UTI. I want it gone. Its the most painful, most uncomfortable thing ever. Its been about a week now, and its still carrying on. The doctors cant see me until Tuesday. I think Im going to be insane by then. Im scared of the meds they put you on for this though too. Most women get yeast infections from it b/c it kills all that good bacteria down there. thats the last thing i want. for realz.
I need to go to the vagina doctor too. I have no insurance though. Im going to go through the NC health dept though. they base everything off income. I should really probably get back on the pill (damn andy). We'll see if i can afford it.
back to boy problems. wow. i sound like a whiney bitch. but yea...any of you just been friends with benefits? if so, how do you do it? how do you keep your feelings out of something like that? arg.
I think i should just shut my mouth for now. there is so much more on my mind, but i dont know how to express it. not at all. I guess I'll write more later on.
Lots going on...for those of you who would actually care, you probably already know about it.
Me and Zach are over. I talked to him last night. Ive been moved out for months now, but I finally told him we need to separate our bank accounts and get the car in my name. It was so difficult to do, but he made it a little easier by being a huge bag of douche to me. Its so weird though. Six years...down the drain. But I just dont love him anymore. At least, not in the way I SHOULD love him if we were going to stay in a relationship.
I've met somebody in the recent months too. I have no clue how he REALLY feels about me, but I'm completely head over heels for him already, and its only been like 3 weeks. I cant believe it. He keeps sending so many mixed signals I cant even think straight. Im terrified that when he does figure everything out...hes going to tell me we cant be anything more than friends. I know i shouldnt rush right back into a relationship, but i feel so strongly for him. Its crazy. BTW, his name is Andy. Just in case i refrence him later.
I miss my friends. My true friends. I left them all back in FL. =( Katie and I talk most every day still, and we are closer than ever. Chris is still like my little bro. Me and Mandy started talking more recently and Im really happy about that. I missed her so much. We used to talk like every friggin day. shes amazing. Mario and I still talk, not as much as we should, but we try. And thats what counts.
Uhm...Im quite uncomfortable right now. this is probably tmi..but its my damn journal so yea lol I have a UTI. I want it gone. Its the most painful, most uncomfortable thing ever. Its been about a week now, and its still carrying on. The doctors cant see me until Tuesday. I think Im going to be insane by then. Im scared of the meds they put you on for this though too. Most women get yeast infections from it b/c it kills all that good bacteria down there. thats the last thing i want. for realz.
I need to go to the vagina doctor too. I have no insurance though. Im going to go through the NC health dept though. they base everything off income. I should really probably get back on the pill (damn andy). We'll see if i can afford it.
back to boy problems. wow. i sound like a whiney bitch. but yea...any of you just been friends with benefits? if so, how do you do it? how do you keep your feelings out of something like that? arg.
I think i should just shut my mouth for now. there is so much more on my mind, but i dont know how to express it. not at all. I guess I'll write more later on.