i wake alone in a woman's room i hardly know.

[in_the_blinds]

i waited on a family today.
i'm not sure where they were from.
it was the little girl's 5th birthday.
she was born on 9/11.
there was something about the way the dad was talking about it.
you could tell they felt she was a blessing.
i almost cried while i was standing at the table.

in other news...

through a recent series of events 
involving contacts with other people 
and the affect they have been having on me 
mentally and emmotionaly
i have decided it would be best for now 
if i go back to not feeling so much.

it was inevitable.
i don't even feel like fighting shutting down.
oh well.