picking a new trail to follow
so me and jimmy moved into our new apartment on saturday, and so far its fucking rockin...its nice to have my own place, and pay for it with my own damn paychecks - my father isnt supporting me one cent.
so get this, im so happy about this - jimmy calls me last night from work and asks me if i care if some guywhos a friend of his sister (from chicago) stays the night cause hes a travelling musician from chicago and he had no place to stay. so i said i guess thats fine as long as hes cool and not gonna steal all our shit, so then i went out for the night. i got home about 1230am kinda worried about this guy, hoping it wouldnt be weird, but he was here with jimmy and we all smoked cigarettes, grubbed up, put on some coffee and got to swapping stories...this guy has a month long rail-pass for amtrack and is just travelling the country playing open mics and shit. hes in someband called 'el suavos' i guess, but he doesnt wanna get really big he said. hes living the dream, although he said it gets lonely cause he doesnt know people in all these towns hes staying at, and the road is hard, but he loves it and the freedom it gives him. we made him play a song for his supper, and it was really good, he puts a lot of feeling into his music, and i could really connect with it. this is why im so glad to have my own place, cause shit like this doesnt happen at your parents house, seriously.
talking with him made me think more about myself, and my dream of acting. i told him how im worried cause i really want to act, and i think that its the only thing i can really see myself being happy with for the rest of my life - even if i never make it bigger than some low budget indie films, ill still be happy cause i did what i wanted and i did what i loved. i think im going to go to boston next fall, maybe ill wait until january, but within a year my serious goal is to get there. ill probably work for a semester setting upa place and saving up, but i wanna keep going to school, maybe a community college since its cheapest, just so i can have a backup plan if nothing ever gets off the ground.
i wanna go for my dream instead of getting old playing it safe and never being truly happy.
bill tucker may have changed my life forever. thanks bill, thank you.
so get this, im so happy about this - jimmy calls me last night from work and asks me if i care if some guywhos a friend of his sister (from chicago) stays the night cause hes a travelling musician from chicago and he had no place to stay. so i said i guess thats fine as long as hes cool and not gonna steal all our shit, so then i went out for the night. i got home about 1230am kinda worried about this guy, hoping it wouldnt be weird, but he was here with jimmy and we all smoked cigarettes, grubbed up, put on some coffee and got to swapping stories...this guy has a month long rail-pass for amtrack and is just travelling the country playing open mics and shit. hes in someband called 'el suavos' i guess, but he doesnt wanna get really big he said. hes living the dream, although he said it gets lonely cause he doesnt know people in all these towns hes staying at, and the road is hard, but he loves it and the freedom it gives him. we made him play a song for his supper, and it was really good, he puts a lot of feeling into his music, and i could really connect with it. this is why im so glad to have my own place, cause shit like this doesnt happen at your parents house, seriously.
talking with him made me think more about myself, and my dream of acting. i told him how im worried cause i really want to act, and i think that its the only thing i can really see myself being happy with for the rest of my life - even if i never make it bigger than some low budget indie films, ill still be happy cause i did what i wanted and i did what i loved. i think im going to go to boston next fall, maybe ill wait until january, but within a year my serious goal is to get there. ill probably work for a semester setting upa place and saving up, but i wanna keep going to school, maybe a community college since its cheapest, just so i can have a backup plan if nothing ever gets off the ground.
i wanna go for my dream instead of getting old playing it safe and never being truly happy.
bill tucker may have changed my life forever. thanks bill, thank you.