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[in_plastique]

Last day of school was today. I smoked before school so I felt like melting into the pavement and pretending I wasn't there. Hung out around the convenience store until with a bunch of people i love and hate. then me and chris went into school for my art class and then i went to chris' art class the period after that. the school day felt the same as any other. we went across the street. got a few annoying stares from some annoying human beings. smoked a few cigarettes. kissed a few cheeks. left. went to allisons'/went in the pool. made fucking love to this boy. i hate being the one to do the talking all the time. i can just lay and watch him and listen to him speak all day and kiss him on the mouth. people say i should do better. well i say they should stop trying so hard. i love his smile. i love his laugh. i love his body and the way he moves it. i love his behavior. i love when he reads my mind. i love reading his. i love the way he reminds me of me. i'm infatuated with his hands. i'm fixated on his eyes. i'm in love and whenever this happends my friends forget about me. i let go of everything. i'm sick of feeling so much pain from this jealousy issue i have. but i do miss you. i don't really have friends. the people ilove so much i consider more. friends are close enemies. the title friend is so feeble and stupid to me. understand that i haven't forgotten you and i'd love waste some time with you in the summer. i love talking like a robot.



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He's beautiful to me.



shaped perfectly.



You're my preference.
Forget what you lack.



His smile is like rape
with sugar on top.



He said I'm
pretty "like a flower".



He's beautiful to me.



His laughter makes
my heart orgasm.



They still look at me
like my loss is so great.



His eyes are deeper then
your vaginal warts.

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