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most of the bad things within the past few days got turned around and ended up turning out for the better. i've had a really "blessed" week thus far, if i'm allowed to say that, and it continues to be great i'm sure.
saw all the ladies tonight which was cool, spent the late afternoon with natalie which was great(but smelly haha kidding), hugged christine a lot (and got my boobs molested, she is such a violent friend wtf haha), just nice. real productive day.
woke up, called christine, called irvine nat and caught up, woke up and made myself a bomb ass bagel situation and chilled at home by myself.. mostly on the deck and in the kitchen.. it was sunny but breezy so after my bagel i had a food coma siesta, christine woke me up and then i went back out on the deck and read more of ray's book and cleaned the kitchen, played with bunny, washed dishes, tidied up, cleaned her cage and made it nice, scooped her poop, etc. really nice afternoon. chilly but nice.
showered then nat came over and we headed to her place to get my cheek bruised and ish. then we walked them dogs and talked about relationships and how your character really shows through and you can more easily spot your faults as a person when dealing in all your relationships. just reflecting on past situations and relationships and how poorly i have handled things, i realize now that i have a TON more self reflection to do and then fixing these faults. then no more "stupid girl" shit from me and i can be the perfect most awesome girl and person ever and date REALLY HOT GUYS. hoho.
watched enchanted with the fam and had fresh pineapple. i have come to love family and my dad says i have really matured which is cool. i just finally appreciate them and realize my responsibility towards them and just home life, doing what i can around the house while i'm back and just maximizing my time with them.
yesterday i went to the city with natalie, had a romantic lunch and caught up then i read for a little in borders about how we live in a society of fear.. then had maggie mudd's which was aight, but it was in bernal heights where i got lost three times while trying to find jacob, and it was really chill for me this time but i guess nat was stressed to the point that her butt hurt haha. oh tha city. then drove back which was niceee and then drove back out with fam to have vietnamese vegan with grandparents. came back and got old shit together to give to goodwill. got a good pile of clothes going. my attachment level has gone down a bunch since last time, i think it's because of the fact that my mom has been cleaning and rearranging furniture, and/or getting older, and realizing that all the clothes i had been keeping for nostalgic purposes or for the hope that one day i will wear them.. are actually just wasting space and good use. i don't know.
getting in that fight and having a real break up talk the other day with ray did me good too. figured more stuff out and we've talked less. we caught up just now, he told me he got a $1000 camera from rtn and that he's going to pawn it off to pay me back. although i'd love for him to keep it, he better follow through because he hasn't a lot in the past when it comes to money.
so besides chris who doesn't have a phone anymore i've seen everyone at home. yay. even saw anthony tru tonight that was aawwweeesommeeee even though awkward. very happy. i need to see chris though, this shit is killin me. i wish i had more time at home but i suppose it is better this way, i'd rather be sick of life in irvine rather than be sick at life at home chuknowwhatimshayin. i got most of my important spring break plans done, also very stoked to be talking to eric again, he's a great friend. gosh i love him. i'm excited to hang out when i get back.
tomorrow
- get the bumper scrapes outta my car
- lunch in berkeley at this nice restaurant my mom keeps talking about
- time spent in that area with fam.. dunno what.
- vegan sushi for dinner
... i unno, either fam or friend time....
friday night
- party with sandra and lauren in palo alto
sat morn
- breakfast with christine before she leaves?
sat night
- house show in sj to see daniel? with nat?
- fam friend night?
.. more fam? more grandparents time?? poss before my flight at 9pm on sunday..
more christine and nat time for sure, maybe fit in some char tapx, chris hopefully.... but not counting on it. i'd like more erica time too. hahahaha i was supposed to meet dawit!!! but i don't have enough time right now.
ps i'm never gonna get new shoes. holla
saw all the ladies tonight which was cool, spent the late afternoon with natalie which was great(but smelly haha kidding), hugged christine a lot (and got my boobs molested, she is such a violent friend wtf haha), just nice. real productive day.
woke up, called christine, called irvine nat and caught up, woke up and made myself a bomb ass bagel situation and chilled at home by myself.. mostly on the deck and in the kitchen.. it was sunny but breezy so after my bagel i had a food coma siesta, christine woke me up and then i went back out on the deck and read more of ray's book and cleaned the kitchen, played with bunny, washed dishes, tidied up, cleaned her cage and made it nice, scooped her poop, etc. really nice afternoon. chilly but nice.
showered then nat came over and we headed to her place to get my cheek bruised and ish. then we walked them dogs and talked about relationships and how your character really shows through and you can more easily spot your faults as a person when dealing in all your relationships. just reflecting on past situations and relationships and how poorly i have handled things, i realize now that i have a TON more self reflection to do and then fixing these faults. then no more "stupid girl" shit from me and i can be the perfect most awesome girl and person ever and date REALLY HOT GUYS. hoho.
watched enchanted with the fam and had fresh pineapple. i have come to love family and my dad says i have really matured which is cool. i just finally appreciate them and realize my responsibility towards them and just home life, doing what i can around the house while i'm back and just maximizing my time with them.
yesterday i went to the city with natalie, had a romantic lunch and caught up then i read for a little in borders about how we live in a society of fear.. then had maggie mudd's which was aight, but it was in bernal heights where i got lost three times while trying to find jacob, and it was really chill for me this time but i guess nat was stressed to the point that her butt hurt haha. oh tha city. then drove back which was niceee and then drove back out with fam to have vietnamese vegan with grandparents. came back and got old shit together to give to goodwill. got a good pile of clothes going. my attachment level has gone down a bunch since last time, i think it's because of the fact that my mom has been cleaning and rearranging furniture, and/or getting older, and realizing that all the clothes i had been keeping for nostalgic purposes or for the hope that one day i will wear them.. are actually just wasting space and good use. i don't know.
getting in that fight and having a real break up talk the other day with ray did me good too. figured more stuff out and we've talked less. we caught up just now, he told me he got a $1000 camera from rtn and that he's going to pawn it off to pay me back. although i'd love for him to keep it, he better follow through because he hasn't a lot in the past when it comes to money.
so besides chris who doesn't have a phone anymore i've seen everyone at home. yay. even saw anthony tru tonight that was aawwweeesommeeee even though awkward. very happy. i need to see chris though, this shit is killin me. i wish i had more time at home but i suppose it is better this way, i'd rather be sick of life in irvine rather than be sick at life at home chuknowwhatimshayin. i got most of my important spring break plans done, also very stoked to be talking to eric again, he's a great friend. gosh i love him. i'm excited to hang out when i get back.
tomorrow
- get the bumper scrapes outta my car
- lunch in berkeley at this nice restaurant my mom keeps talking about
- time spent in that area with fam.. dunno what.
- vegan sushi for dinner
... i unno, either fam or friend time....
friday night
- party with sandra and lauren in palo alto
sat morn
- breakfast with christine before she leaves?
sat night
- house show in sj to see daniel? with nat?
- fam friend night?
.. more fam? more grandparents time?? poss before my flight at 9pm on sunday..
more christine and nat time for sure, maybe fit in some char tapx, chris hopefully.... but not counting on it. i'd like more erica time too. hahahaha i was supposed to meet dawit!!! but i don't have enough time right now.
ps i'm never gonna get new shoes. holla