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ugh already another entry.
i'm annoyed that my parents won't let me drive. godddaaaaamn cuz i actually want to go to work. i guess cuz i figure its better than being here.
they even made sure they parked my car in the backyard so i can't get out. wonderful.
so i straightened my room up AGAIN because that seems to be the only thing i ever do when i'm home. ugh i want to paint so freakin badly. i need more canvas and paint asap. if i could drive i could go get some but i can't gah.
how come my ipod seems to always play the same artists when i put it on shuffle?
my shoulders hurt and i don't know why.
i'm not lookin forward to walking around campus on tuesday through all this snow. and i feel as if no one, absolutely no one, is gonna be around this semester. so much for meeting new people and seeing old friends huh. everyone either drops out or they're finished. man i wish i was finished, but i know i do better, a lot better, when there is not so much on my plate, and really, there is no time limit even though i feel there is so much pressure to be done with school by the time i am 21. i now know that that is just not a possibility for me. i don't think i've messed up or slacked off, it's just unfortunate i suppose seeing as i completely broke down last semester. ugh if i only knew what the hell i wanted to do with my life...or what i would be capable of doing.
a record store would be key, but i have no clue how to even get started with that.
music journalism would be nice depending on me not having to do interviews. and that's kinda impossible i think in journalism. i just want to go to shows for free (or not, although free would be cool), get vip treatment, watch the show, take pictures, take a little video maybe or record a bit of it, write about the show or the current album they're promoting and be done with it.
i could just be a writer. i don't know if i could possibly write anything too lengthy though. my mind wanders.
i would love to work with an independent record label...finding new talent, but how would i be so lucky to get a job like that? what kind of schooling do you need for that?
maybe i should just invest in singing lessons and start a band, and hopefully get over singing in front of people. haha. the only problem is i doubt i could ever live off that seeing as i would never want to sign to a major record label or be on mtv. i've thought about this in-depth. and, if we ever made a video i wouldn't want to be in it. if i was i'd reside in the background. cuz afterall, i don't want it to be about me. i don't know if that makes any sense because i go back and forth in my head about this as if i was actually in a band. last nite i was talking to some kid who met me at the king kullen parking lot in middle island at the jared vigil and he asked me if i was ever in a band and i told him nah. he had mistaken me for someone who was in a band and i found that to be pretty cool. ahh look at all that rambling. but anyway, yeah the non-pictures of me and my band...sorta like sunny day real estate. they only released one picture of themselves, or so i read. buuut, i have seen one of their videos and they were def in there. so i think whatever i read had their information wroooong.
did i mention i got my tickets for valentines day yesterday? who's excited? i am!
today's show was rescheduled to next saturday the same day of the bravery show. gah! that's the bravery's only ny date! buuuut if the times are still the same i can still go to that show. i think. cuz that show is in brooklyn and starts at 8 30. and the show today was supposed to end at 7 30. so that would give me an hour to get from farmingdale to the north six. ugh. if only someone wanted to go to that show with me!!!! listen to new music! and then like it and then accompany me!
i think if i was born years ago i woulda been a dead head like my mom.
i want to visit london. i've been talking with an english accent as of late...
my mom's making pot roast. i'm not in the mood for it. what's wrong with me? and...i'm finally losing weight. it's nice. i feel crummy today though. i feel like dressing up more and then i think to myself who the hell is gonna see you. you're just gonna be sitting in your room writing in your lj all goddamn day. which is why i'm wearing my white lifetime shirt.
i think i will start watching tv until i can think of something else to ramble about.
i'm annoyed that my parents won't let me drive. godddaaaaamn cuz i actually want to go to work. i guess cuz i figure its better than being here.
they even made sure they parked my car in the backyard so i can't get out. wonderful.
so i straightened my room up AGAIN because that seems to be the only thing i ever do when i'm home. ugh i want to paint so freakin badly. i need more canvas and paint asap. if i could drive i could go get some but i can't gah.
how come my ipod seems to always play the same artists when i put it on shuffle?
my shoulders hurt and i don't know why.
i'm not lookin forward to walking around campus on tuesday through all this snow. and i feel as if no one, absolutely no one, is gonna be around this semester. so much for meeting new people and seeing old friends huh. everyone either drops out or they're finished. man i wish i was finished, but i know i do better, a lot better, when there is not so much on my plate, and really, there is no time limit even though i feel there is so much pressure to be done with school by the time i am 21. i now know that that is just not a possibility for me. i don't think i've messed up or slacked off, it's just unfortunate i suppose seeing as i completely broke down last semester. ugh if i only knew what the hell i wanted to do with my life...or what i would be capable of doing.
a record store would be key, but i have no clue how to even get started with that.
music journalism would be nice depending on me not having to do interviews. and that's kinda impossible i think in journalism. i just want to go to shows for free (or not, although free would be cool), get vip treatment, watch the show, take pictures, take a little video maybe or record a bit of it, write about the show or the current album they're promoting and be done with it.
i could just be a writer. i don't know if i could possibly write anything too lengthy though. my mind wanders.
i would love to work with an independent record label...finding new talent, but how would i be so lucky to get a job like that? what kind of schooling do you need for that?
maybe i should just invest in singing lessons and start a band, and hopefully get over singing in front of people. haha. the only problem is i doubt i could ever live off that seeing as i would never want to sign to a major record label or be on mtv. i've thought about this in-depth. and, if we ever made a video i wouldn't want to be in it. if i was i'd reside in the background. cuz afterall, i don't want it to be about me. i don't know if that makes any sense because i go back and forth in my head about this as if i was actually in a band. last nite i was talking to some kid who met me at the king kullen parking lot in middle island at the jared vigil and he asked me if i was ever in a band and i told him nah. he had mistaken me for someone who was in a band and i found that to be pretty cool. ahh look at all that rambling. but anyway, yeah the non-pictures of me and my band...sorta like sunny day real estate. they only released one picture of themselves, or so i read. buuut, i have seen one of their videos and they were def in there. so i think whatever i read had their information wroooong.
did i mention i got my tickets for valentines day yesterday? who's excited? i am!
today's show was rescheduled to next saturday the same day of the bravery show. gah! that's the bravery's only ny date! buuuut if the times are still the same i can still go to that show. i think. cuz that show is in brooklyn and starts at 8 30. and the show today was supposed to end at 7 30. so that would give me an hour to get from farmingdale to the north six. ugh. if only someone wanted to go to that show with me!!!! listen to new music! and then like it and then accompany me!
i think if i was born years ago i woulda been a dead head like my mom.
i want to visit london. i've been talking with an english accent as of late...
my mom's making pot roast. i'm not in the mood for it. what's wrong with me? and...i'm finally losing weight. it's nice. i feel crummy today though. i feel like dressing up more and then i think to myself who the hell is gonna see you. you're just gonna be sitting in your room writing in your lj all goddamn day. which is why i'm wearing my white lifetime shirt.
i think i will start watching tv until i can think of something else to ramble about.