I could be your carpenter, and you could be my twinkling north star o'er the desert sky.
Today I came to realize that chunky peanut butter is the way to go. I like my foods textured. Like orange juice? Not even drinkable for my taste without pulp.
.. that was interesting. or not.
the parents are fighting again.
the teacher called my mom today and told her i was failing and had no possible way to pass.
and i've realized that I NEED to get out and meet more people. the only people i hang out with on a normal basis are spence and francis. and i dont even see them that much unless i go to the sad. so im going to try and be more outgoing instead of smiling, nodding, and turning away when people try to talk to me if i don't know them. in the mall i realized i should be more like spence. everytime we walked into the store and the people would say hello and how are you and do you need any help, i would mumble "fine. im all set." and spence would enthusiastically say "Im excellent thanks! how are you?! I'm all set, but thank you!" and people respond a bit better to that. i think i'll start at the sad. instead of sitting in the lobby all the time and watching people around me from behind a pamplet, ill start actually speaking. ill just choose the people carefully. who knows. maybe ill get some more friends out of it. all i know is that i just really need to start talking to people and making some friends. because at this point.. im not a healthy person. i dont talk to anyone about my problems. i think i want a shrink.
thats all i have to say for now. besides i hate school.
And I am what is left: a puppet!
Laughing at the look of amazment on the musician's face,
Pinocchio dove off the cliff and swam away.
<3amanda.
.. that was interesting. or not.
the parents are fighting again.
the teacher called my mom today and told her i was failing and had no possible way to pass.
and i've realized that I NEED to get out and meet more people. the only people i hang out with on a normal basis are spence and francis. and i dont even see them that much unless i go to the sad. so im going to try and be more outgoing instead of smiling, nodding, and turning away when people try to talk to me if i don't know them. in the mall i realized i should be more like spence. everytime we walked into the store and the people would say hello and how are you and do you need any help, i would mumble "fine. im all set." and spence would enthusiastically say "Im excellent thanks! how are you?! I'm all set, but thank you!" and people respond a bit better to that. i think i'll start at the sad. instead of sitting in the lobby all the time and watching people around me from behind a pamplet, ill start actually speaking. ill just choose the people carefully. who knows. maybe ill get some more friends out of it. all i know is that i just really need to start talking to people and making some friends. because at this point.. im not a healthy person. i dont talk to anyone about my problems. i think i want a shrink.
thats all i have to say for now. besides i hate school.
And I am what is left: a puppet!
Laughing at the look of amazment on the musician's face,
Pinocchio dove off the cliff and swam away.
<3amanda.