Bleh
I guess i should probably update. im sick of looking at that conversation on my LJ anyways.. heres the 411----
I miss how it used to be. i miss this summer. durning the summer, i didnt necessarily think it was that great, but now, compared to now, the summer was some of the best time of my life. I dont really know what to do. all of this is just kind of making me realize why we hung out. and it really bothers me that thats what it came down to. we had so much in common in the beginning. then it was as if we were always on something. well. i dont know.
fuck
I guess there are parts of the school year that have made it really cool. at the beggining it was all of us. we were together. everyone i wanted to be with. it was almost beautiful. but then that faded. all i had was them. him, and her. he's so wonderful. but i dont know why he cant see. or feel. is he ok? sometimes i wish i could just paint it on my face "i love you". is that obvious enough for you hunny?
damn it all
I hate being lonely. i feel like i had a grape vine of friends and then substance slowly harvested them and now all it is is me and me stem. the only girl who keeps me together.
why
I miss feeling on top. feeling infamous. feeling fun. feeling. I miss it all. is it too late?
--did this help you?
--no.
--how come
--you cant cut and paste the summer to the now. can you?
--no.
-fuck off.