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strange.
that nothing i want is impossible.
but i'm mute..
cause even when i speak it isn't what i mean.
i was walking through a clearing in the near blackness tonight, and realised i was surrounded by hundreds of fireflies.. "hypnotized by fireflies, that glow in the dark"
i've been drawing and ripping things to shreds today. cause even if things are good enough, i can't give myself a reason to hold on.
california feels like the closest to home, besides my great-gramma's house, cause there i'm gripped by this fear of change. not good change, but the kind that follows death and destroys everything beautiful cause i'm the only one sentimental enough to see it. so it hurts to be there.. to know that in the grander scheme of things there's only seconds before all of it is shot to hell, cause there's money to be had, in going on with your life, when someone else is freshly in the ground. that was too cynical.. but nobody will give a shit about a decrepit house and the surrounding land in the middle of nowhere, romania.
I wanted to see
if fire would burn me.
I thought I would know
if four walls could hold me.
that nothing i want is impossible.
but i'm mute..
cause even when i speak it isn't what i mean.
i was walking through a clearing in the near blackness tonight, and realised i was surrounded by hundreds of fireflies.. "hypnotized by fireflies, that glow in the dark"
i've been drawing and ripping things to shreds today. cause even if things are good enough, i can't give myself a reason to hold on.
california feels like the closest to home, besides my great-gramma's house, cause there i'm gripped by this fear of change. not good change, but the kind that follows death and destroys everything beautiful cause i'm the only one sentimental enough to see it. so it hurts to be there.. to know that in the grander scheme of things there's only seconds before all of it is shot to hell, cause there's money to be had, in going on with your life, when someone else is freshly in the ground. that was too cynical.. but nobody will give a shit about a decrepit house and the surrounding land in the middle of nowhere, romania.
I wanted to see
if fire would burn me.
I thought I would know
if four walls could hold me.