just to fill u guys in

Oct 16, 2004 17:04

i FORGOT HOW MUCH i LOVE MAROON 5, i`M OFFiCiALLY RE-ADDiCTED TO THE CD.

i BROKE DOWN AND CRiED YESTERDAY iN 3RD PERiOD, BECAUSE SOMETiMES YOU JUST HAVE TO CRY .. CONTRARY TO COMMON BELiEF, iT WAS JUST A CRY OUT OF STRESS.

FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO KNOW ME WELL, YOU KNOW THAT i`M FAiLiNG TWO CLASSES AND HAD A GENiUS PLAN OF HiDiNG MY PROGRESS REPORT SO THAT i COULD BRiNG MY GRADES UP BEFORE MY DAD WOULD NOTiCE ANYTHiNG WAS WRONG. WELL HAD MY FATHER GONE TO THE STORE LiKE HE SAiD HE WAS GOiNG TO, i COULD HAVE SUCCESSFULLY SNATCHED THE SON OF A BiTCH AND GOTTEN HOME FREE. iT DiDN`T WORK AND NOW i`M GROUNDED FOR A MONTH. HOMECOMiNG? WHO KNOWS. HALLOWEEN? DOUBTFUL.
ANOTHER THiNG THAT MOST OF YOU KNOW iS THAT SUZAN LUTFi WANTS TO KiCK MY ASS. i`LL ADMiT NOW THAT i MADE STUPiD STATEMENTS THAT i PLAN ON APPOLOGiZiNG FOR AND TAKiNG FULL RESPONSiBiLiTY FOR MY ACTiONS. i WOULD ALSO LiKE TO HAVE iT KNOWN THAT i`M THROUGH WiTH THE DRAMA AT SHHS AND iF i HAVE TO DEAL WiTH ONE MORE STUPiD BiTCH TRYiNG TO MAKE MY LiFE HELL i`M JUST GUNNA LOOSE iT.

THE THiNG THAT MAKES THiS SiTUATiON THE WORST iS THAT THE ONLY 2 PEOPLE i CAN THiNK OF TO CALL, i CAN`T. ONE iS A GiRL i USED TO BE iNSEPERABLE FROM, SHE WAS MY BEST FRiEND, WE EVEN CONSiDERED OURSELVES COUSiNS. i STiLL LOVE HER DEARLY, BUT THE CLOSENESS JUST iSN`T THERE AND i DON`T NEED ANY MORE AWKWARDNESS. THE SECOND PERSON iS A GUY THAT QUiTE FRANKLY SHOULDN`T EVEN BE ABLE TO LOOK ME iN THE EYE BECAUSE OF WHAT i`VE DONE TO HiM, AND HiS FRiENDS HAVE NO iSSUE BEiNG DiCKS ABOUT iT BUT HE`S A GREAT GUY THAT`S DEALT WiTH iT AND UNDERSTANDS. i MUST ADMiT i`VE BEEN DiSTROT WiTH JEALOUSY OVER HiS NEW FLiNGS HOWEVER, i`M DEALiNG WiTH iT, BECAUSE HE DESERVES TO BE HAPPY. i WiSH i COULD FiND iT iN ME TO CHANGE, AND HOPEFULLY i WiLL. iTS A POSSiBiLiTY THAT i MiGHT TRANSFER TO ANOTHER SCHOOL OR BE MOViNG TO SACRAMENTO BUT WHO KNOWS AS OF RiGHT NOW.

SO NOW THAT EVERYTHiNGS OUT THERE.. WHO KNOWS WHEN i`LL BE ABLE TO UPDATE AGAiN.

i DON`T FEEL THE WAY i`VE EVER FELT. i KNOW. i`M GUNNA SMiLE & NOT
GET WORRiED. i TRY BUT iT SHOWS. ANYONE CAN MAKE WHAT i HAVE BUiLT,
AND BETTER NOW ANYONE CAN FiND THE SAME WHiTE PiLLS, iT TAKES MY
PAiN AWAY. iT`S A LiE, A KiSS WiTH OPEN EYES AND SHE`S NOT BREATHiNG
BACK. ANYTHiNG BUT BOTHER ME, NEVERMiND THESE HORRiD TiMES OH OH OH
iT TAKES MY PAiN AWAY. <3

XOXO, LiZ`BETTHHh RAE
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