Quick life update.
- School is amazing; lots of classes = less unhealthy snacking.
- Being married is amazing; I get to cook low fat meals all the time AND eat smaller portions than I did at my parents house.
- I haven't been feeling very sexy or appealing lately... feelings which my husband can read like a book. He is always telling me how beautiful I am, but I don't always believe him. Sigh.
- Having a lot of control over food is deceiving. I feel like I'm getting healthier, but I fear that my distorted views of food control me rather than vice versa.
- My in-laws are coming to visit Wednesday; wish me luck! His mom is incredibly reserved and proper, so I have a lot of cleaning and baking to do before they get here. (Secretly, I doubt she thinks I'm good enough for her son. I don't believe that I'm the girl she would have picked for him.)
- I'm down 6 pounds since Friday. I'm sure that it's mainly water weight, but it made me feel immensely relieved to see lower numbers.
- I'm going to try to stay away from the scales until the weekend. I'm getting obsessed with the numbers again.
- Calories and numbers float around inside my head all day. In fact, while I was ridiculously drunk this weekend, I kept telling my husband how many calories I had consumed in alcohol and asking him how many calories were in the bread he wanted me to eat. I don't feel obsessed with the numbers, but I feel dirty and anxious if I don't know the correct number of calories in a food before I eat it.
Those are my current circumstances in a nutshell :o)
How are all of you?
<3
- Being married is amazing; I get to cook low fat meals all the time AND eat smaller portions than I did at my parents house.
- I haven't been feeling very sexy or appealing lately... feelings which my husband can read like a book. He is always telling me how beautiful I am, but I don't always believe him. Sigh.
- Having a lot of control over food is deceiving. I feel like I'm getting healthier, but I fear that my distorted views of food control me rather than vice versa.
- My in-laws are coming to visit Wednesday; wish me luck! His mom is incredibly reserved and proper, so I have a lot of cleaning and baking to do before they get here. (Secretly, I doubt she thinks I'm good enough for her son. I don't believe that I'm the girl she would have picked for him.)
- I'm down 6 pounds since Friday. I'm sure that it's mainly water weight, but it made me feel immensely relieved to see lower numbers.
- I'm going to try to stay away from the scales until the weekend. I'm getting obsessed with the numbers again.
- Calories and numbers float around inside my head all day. In fact, while I was ridiculously drunk this weekend, I kept telling my husband how many calories I had consumed in alcohol and asking him how many calories were in the bread he wanted me to eat. I don't feel obsessed with the numbers, but I feel dirty and anxious if I don't know the correct number of calories in a food before I eat it.
Those are my current circumstances in a nutshell :o)
How are all of you?
<3