quick post.
I've been keeping a spreadsheet of my measurements, weight, exercise, and intake. It's a sick system, but I feel SO much relief knowing that the cold hard facts are being recorded.
I've also been restricting like mad, and everyone is noticing. I've started to chew and spit, which is turning out to be quite good for me. The food disappears, so people don't ask as many questions, and I still don't have to live with consuming the calories. Sweet.
I had a three day fast which I broke yesterday for Superbowl festivities with the boy. I cooked, so we ate healthy things and I didn't eat as much as he did.
I've been working out, so I look more tone and feel more flexible. My boyfriend took my improving body for a test drive this weekend, if you know what I mean ;o) It was the first time in a long time that I felt confident, unjudged, and (dare I say it) sexy. He wanted me, and I wanted him. We had lots of mushy, lovey moments, too... but more than anything, I wanted to see lust in his eyes. I'm such a freak.
Today it's back to living on water and coffee. I'm sick, so it won't be hard to lay in bed away from food. I miss you all!
<3
I've also been restricting like mad, and everyone is noticing. I've started to chew and spit, which is turning out to be quite good for me. The food disappears, so people don't ask as many questions, and I still don't have to live with consuming the calories. Sweet.
I had a three day fast which I broke yesterday for Superbowl festivities with the boy. I cooked, so we ate healthy things and I didn't eat as much as he did.
I've been working out, so I look more tone and feel more flexible. My boyfriend took my improving body for a test drive this weekend, if you know what I mean ;o) It was the first time in a long time that I felt confident, unjudged, and (dare I say it) sexy. He wanted me, and I wanted him. We had lots of mushy, lovey moments, too... but more than anything, I wanted to see lust in his eyes. I'm such a freak.
Today it's back to living on water and coffee. I'm sick, so it won't be hard to lay in bed away from food. I miss you all!
<3