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hello so lately iv been so confused not just about one thing but about MANy like everything. freinds. family. guys. me! i dont know. i hate how i have been feeling lately. :-( so i have a couple freinds that i feel as though they hate mee, and lately i have been feeling like soo alone. everyone has someone now. like EVERYone, and i have like nobody! molly has danielle now. jen has lina. zara has hannah. aishah has sophie. and it goes on and on!!!!! and i think i like this guy but its not a kinda guy that i should be liking. he seems like so much older than me but hes not hes in my grade! but hes way more mature then me. and hes not that great of guy. i dno!!! but i guess i cant just stop liking him. sooooo today me and molly had an amazing adventure!!! we went down to coookes and bought water guns and attacked random poeple:) it was really fun! so lately some people have been going really insane like (as i heard) going belimic, potential anerexics! lately self conscioussnesnessss (how ever u spell it!) has become sucha big deal! and its weird. i dnoi feel like if i ever get into a bathing siut poeple are gonna like say "ooo look isnt she just so comfortabe with herself look at her balh blah bitch bitch bitch" and its like i decided i dont care anymore!im not competly comforttable with my body no one really is. BUt i dont wanna spend my summer sitting on the sand thinking how fatt i am! i wanna go in the water and have fun! but i feel like imn gonna get shit talked behind my back everytime i get into a bathing siut. just becuz i actually go in the water doesnt mean im SUPER comfortable with my body i just wnna go in the water and iv gotten over what everyone thinks! i just wnna have fun this summer. so yeah i dont know what to do!! bye!