jingle your bells!
i am feeling a little happier about things at the moment as a few issues that have upset me recently have been kinda resolved. i'm in two minds about whether to quit work or not , i really could do with the money, could do without the accompanying fucking bullshit i seem to get everywhere and i really really want my sundays back!
about these last few days? thank god for the emotional-power pack that is david struthers edgar.
i have been thinking about tobiaswarwick a little bit lately too - i think i would like to get to know him better, he is one of those people that intrigue me greatly... he makes me think about things.
also, david and skye's toby seems wonderful too.
and once, when i was about 15 - late 16 i really fancied my best friend's boyfriend's cousin... toby sexton! he was my first GREAT kiss, ie, the kiss that moves you from just having your mouth excavated by some horrible boys tongue, to kissing for the pleasure it brings.
eww, that was all a bit gross, ha.
i slept so HARD last night, it was beautiful , went shopping today which was costly and time-costly and not overly productive, but i got my mum's presents at least. i wish i was rich so i could please please please people with great presents!!
notes for the week/
*erin hill is awesome
*i eat too much at the moment and am developing a slight tummy
*mcfly are really sweeeet
*homeless people dressed up as santa break my heart fifty times over and leave a permanent mark
*music probably won't save my soul, but i love that about it
*uncle jay and olly care about me
i don't know why i consistently think that no one could really care about me, or really like me. i know i will feel a little bit like that though, but always more than most people too// maybe it's cus things like these upsetting situations happen and pull me down,
or for every person i meet who i like and who seems to like me back, there is one who doesn't and it always bugs me (silly girrrl)like:
they say 'i'm mental' (missed the point of me? i'm not at all!)
or, 'angry and defensive' (ditto)
or 'horrible boyfriend stealer' (hmmmm)
or ....
what a waste of words.
night!
sleep warm
xxx
i love comic relief and it's soooon!
about these last few days? thank god for the emotional-power pack that is david struthers edgar.
i have been thinking about tobiaswarwick a little bit lately too - i think i would like to get to know him better, he is one of those people that intrigue me greatly... he makes me think about things.
also, david and skye's toby seems wonderful too.
and once, when i was about 15 - late 16 i really fancied my best friend's boyfriend's cousin... toby sexton! he was my first GREAT kiss, ie, the kiss that moves you from just having your mouth excavated by some horrible boys tongue, to kissing for the pleasure it brings.
eww, that was all a bit gross, ha.
i slept so HARD last night, it was beautiful , went shopping today which was costly and time-costly and not overly productive, but i got my mum's presents at least. i wish i was rich so i could please please please people with great presents!!
notes for the week/
*erin hill is awesome
*i eat too much at the moment and am developing a slight tummy
*mcfly are really sweeeet
*homeless people dressed up as santa break my heart fifty times over and leave a permanent mark
*music probably won't save my soul, but i love that about it
*uncle jay and olly care about me
i don't know why i consistently think that no one could really care about me, or really like me. i know i will feel a little bit like that though, but always more than most people too// maybe it's cus things like these upsetting situations happen and pull me down,
or for every person i meet who i like and who seems to like me back, there is one who doesn't and it always bugs me (silly girrrl)like:
they say 'i'm mental' (missed the point of me? i'm not at all!)
or, 'angry and defensive' (ditto)
or 'horrible boyfriend stealer' (hmmmm)
or ....
what a waste of words.
night!
sleep warm
xxx
i love comic relief and it's soooon!