september 21, 2oo6
i turn my back to the door & to possible situations. i turn up the volume to drown out possible ideas in my head. but it doesn't work. i'm wrapped in a [security] blanket. protect me from everyone. it gets too hot so i remove the material-- let my flesh breath.
let me live.
concentrating on my breathing sounds like something from religion class.
steadily breath in & out.
moving nonstop is part of my instructions. my brain is malfunctioning telling my body to do things i don't want to do.
& i can't find my manual.
the light is keeping "shadow creatures" away.
my eyes puff up, but words are too beautiful to not write down.
lover's requiem.
draw hands on my hips & imagine that you're here.
draw fingerprints on my cheek & imagine the warmth of your touch.
paint nonsense words and pictures on my wall
& let out the deprived child inside of me.
turn the lights off.
crawl into bed.
let my eyes slip shut.
expose my soul.
& hang on tight for a subconcious ride [with] in the [k]night.
let me live.
concentrating on my breathing sounds like something from religion class.
steadily breath in & out.
moving nonstop is part of my instructions. my brain is malfunctioning telling my body to do things i don't want to do.
& i can't find my manual.
the light is keeping "shadow creatures" away.
my eyes puff up, but words are too beautiful to not write down.
lover's requiem.
draw hands on my hips & imagine that you're here.
draw fingerprints on my cheek & imagine the warmth of your touch.
paint nonsense words and pictures on my wall
& let out the deprived child inside of me.
turn the lights off.
crawl into bed.
let my eyes slip shut.
expose my soul.
& hang on tight for a subconcious ride [with] in the [k]night.