My Hopes Are So High That Your Kiss Might Kill Me. So Won't You Kill Me So I Die Happy?
|Mood
Lonely|
|Music - My Funny Valentine-Chet Baker|
So for the first time in a long time the weather and school have worked together in my favor.
Thats right, seeing as i was thinking of just skipping school today and ruining everyones life.
But alas, i didnt need to. Becuz school got cancelled due to horrible impending weather.
You should of heard me hooping and yelling at 6:15am this morning when i heard it.
so my day started nice. I went to pee, went back to bed, read for about an hour and then
went back to bed until about a half an hour ago (11am) when i woke up.
so even tho i'm in a good mood im still in my 'i fucking miss timothy,i want to sit in corner and cry' mood.
so my birthday is in like 8 days.Stoked! as of right now i'm pretty sure i want to chill at timothy's house on friday,
after school or something (i've not made plans yet these are just ideas) and then maybe have him come and stay the night on friday at my house so we can chill at my house on my birthday. and then sunday is free game for whatever.
So i'm hoping thats how things roll.
but seeing as that is so fucking far away, i cant stop thinking about seeing him this weekend.
I havent seen him since last sunday, and becuz of my intense emotional breakdowns i've had this week
i just really neeeeedddd to see Tim.
Hey rebecca,what emotional breakdown? you might ask.
well since tuesday everything has kinda been piling up emotional and with stress.
my play being fucked and then just school being like it is... everything just kinda became a pile of mixed emotions.
And each day i would just cry about the most random things.
IE, yesterday, third class;Drama. I got Jennings to give back my Rent dvd seeing as he has had since before xmas.
and Matt Murray tried to take it and i freaked out and started kicking him and you know how people when they get really upset and they get mad at someone and just end up banging on their chest screaming and crying? well thats what i ended up doing and then i sat in the corner just crying and crying. it was bad..
so of course i made daddy come and get me becuz i just couldnt handle being around people.
but yeah after i see tim this weekend i'm hoping i'll be able to get said emotions under control.
Becuz i cant handle another week like the week that just passed.
hope timothy wakes up and calls me soon.
<3