without russian thinking

[imzuff]

i can`t be honest with myself. usually i forget my real emotions and go in for any nonsensе...
i just want to be happy. but when i began to be glad becouse of smth, anything is appearing and is
crossing everything. and me again reigns indifference.

it`s sadly to be as me. all my energy is falsehood. where did i lose my soul, motherfucker?