I think I'm good.
It's interesting to me how at random moments things can just come together. It happened to me today while leaving the parking lot of Target no less. You see over the summer I had a striking realization, I had let myself become unhappy with my life. I decided I needed to change, and I did. I took a look how I saw myself, and it was not good at all. I wasn't taking care of myself physically or emotionally. I bottled up all my sadness, frustrations, and let myself be used by some people in my life. I gave myself new boundaries, and I knew that if I didn't value myself no one ever would.
That one change of mindset changed my life. It also culminated in me losing 30 pounds and going from a size 14 (which I had been for quite sometime, and that hadn't even been my heaviest, I digress) to a size 8. The loss of poundage has been great, but what I am most grateful for is the joy and confidence I had lost, and that I now have now.
What is the big coming together I experienced today? It's this: I don't need to try so hard at the weight loss thing anymore. I am at the right size for me (granted if I lose more weight I won't say no). Some people would say that 145 pounds on a 5 foot frame isn't ideal, but I am finally happy in my own skin. I am also living a healthy lifestyle. I eat more whole grains, fruits, vegetables and drink more water than I EVER have. My sweet tooth is finally under control. I have finally conquered a part of my life I always thought I couldn't.
I think I completed my goal, I like myself again.
That one change of mindset changed my life. It also culminated in me losing 30 pounds and going from a size 14 (which I had been for quite sometime, and that hadn't even been my heaviest, I digress) to a size 8. The loss of poundage has been great, but what I am most grateful for is the joy and confidence I had lost, and that I now have now.
What is the big coming together I experienced today? It's this: I don't need to try so hard at the weight loss thing anymore. I am at the right size for me (granted if I lose more weight I won't say no). Some people would say that 145 pounds on a 5 foot frame isn't ideal, but I am finally happy in my own skin. I am also living a healthy lifestyle. I eat more whole grains, fruits, vegetables and drink more water than I EVER have. My sweet tooth is finally under control. I have finally conquered a part of my life I always thought I couldn't.
I think I completed my goal, I like myself again.