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alright. this isn't for anyone..this one is just for me. well i talk to my mom and i think i made my decision. im going to try my hardest to drop cheerleading. whatever they decided is done. and blah blah. but i know its going to be hard. really really hard. but what ever. i dont want to see the coaches...dont even want to talk to them. i am going to all the games like i did last year..because duh, they are really fun. so i know it will be hard at the games sometimes..you know? and i realize. it could be totally worse..like i could be the only one ..but it did happen to alot of my friends...and the cool thing is most are my close friends. but i hate thinking about it. it is like a joke. i found out what they thought. what they thought was bulshit. my mom..i love her for what she did. but she said she was done, because she thinks that from the dicsion they made, its obviously not wroth doing it . and i wont have to deal with the extra drama..and my prediction there'll be alot. im just really bumbed that it came to this. she ruined my love. almost my life. but im not going to let this ruin my life..im giong to try to move on. i mean my puppup told me that maybe this would open up for a new thing..that this was meant to be. and my mom said that maybe i was meant to do comptetive...and this is a opening for the comptetive team...so my mom and i are going to look in to it..but im not really sure im giong to do it. i can't want til the foot ball games. the bright side is that i get to be with all my closest friends in the student section...and still cheer..the only thing different is im not infront of anyone. so i do still get to cheer for the football team, and even better be with my friends. it will be really hard the first couple of games, but i will get over it. ..hopefully. so i decided im just going to have jayne or someone get my scores..because i dont want to bump into, or see any of the coachs...its not worth my team...i hope they regret their descion. and i hope they will for the rest of their coach career.