Tears
devil_weed_420: what's wrong with you're mom Bonnie?
devil_weed_420: I mean if it's ok to ask
.·°b0nnie°·.: yeh its ok but i might cry lol
devil_weed_420:
devil_weed_420: Hugs for Bonners
.·°b0nnie°·.: i dont honestly know.. shes 60.. gettin old.. whenever she hurts she lies and refuses to see a dr cuz shes afraid theyll find more stuff wrong.. right now her mouth is swollen and her gum is too and its killin her, she wont eat, barely drinks anything.. so i gave her a vicoden and my bestfriend brought over some antibiotics for her.. so i gave her that too and a bottle of water and every hour im takin her cold water, she messed up her shoulder worse than shell admit.. so ive been ben-gayin that and puttin special lil pads for aches an pains on it.. she doesnt check her diabetes anymore.. i yelled at her today cuz i was all upset over stupid fuckin shit and i didnt know she felt so bad.. i made her cry and now i feel horrible.. my dad is being a dick cuz she went to bed "early"
.·°b0nnie°·.: and they didnt get to sit and talk like normal.. i dont know.. im jus worried.. im only 17 and shes sick and shes been sicker the last 2 months than she ever has been in my life.. shes NEVER sick.. so i know its serious and shes lyin to me
I yelled at her today all because she sent in her favorite senior portrait of me and didn't tell me.. it was a good picture, she loved it, and I yelled at her. I feel like shit. I'm so scared. I don't want to lose my mom... I couldn't.. I can't take it. She's never sick and it's killing me. I'm in tears. I feel like everything is falling apart. I'm not doing good in school, my mom is sick, my dad is in major dick head mode, and I just feel lost. My mom thinks it's because I'm turning into an adult and I'm hitting a little bit of depression and confusion on the way because it's all coming so fast. I asked my dad if he thought she was going to be okay and he said he didn't know, then I told him to take her to the Doctors and he said he couldn't force her and she didn't want to go. We forced him when he had a bagillion heartattacks and his stubborn ass wouldn't go. I'm scared.. what if she doesn't see me graduate... see her last lil baby do good in life... see her future grandbaby... what if she isn't there for me like she was for my other siblings.. I WANT HER THERE. Please... God... if there is one, let my mama be okay because she's really the only thing keeping my pathetic ass glued together.
B.
devil_weed_420: I mean if it's ok to ask
.·°b0nnie°·.: yeh its ok but i might cry lol
devil_weed_420:
devil_weed_420: Hugs for Bonners
.·°b0nnie°·.: i dont honestly know.. shes 60.. gettin old.. whenever she hurts she lies and refuses to see a dr cuz shes afraid theyll find more stuff wrong.. right now her mouth is swollen and her gum is too and its killin her, she wont eat, barely drinks anything.. so i gave her a vicoden and my bestfriend brought over some antibiotics for her.. so i gave her that too and a bottle of water and every hour im takin her cold water, she messed up her shoulder worse than shell admit.. so ive been ben-gayin that and puttin special lil pads for aches an pains on it.. she doesnt check her diabetes anymore.. i yelled at her today cuz i was all upset over stupid fuckin shit and i didnt know she felt so bad.. i made her cry and now i feel horrible.. my dad is being a dick cuz she went to bed "early"
.·°b0nnie°·.: and they didnt get to sit and talk like normal.. i dont know.. im jus worried.. im only 17 and shes sick and shes been sicker the last 2 months than she ever has been in my life.. shes NEVER sick.. so i know its serious and shes lyin to me
I yelled at her today all because she sent in her favorite senior portrait of me and didn't tell me.. it was a good picture, she loved it, and I yelled at her. I feel like shit. I'm so scared. I don't want to lose my mom... I couldn't.. I can't take it. She's never sick and it's killing me. I'm in tears. I feel like everything is falling apart. I'm not doing good in school, my mom is sick, my dad is in major dick head mode, and I just feel lost. My mom thinks it's because I'm turning into an adult and I'm hitting a little bit of depression and confusion on the way because it's all coming so fast. I asked my dad if he thought she was going to be okay and he said he didn't know, then I told him to take her to the Doctors and he said he couldn't force her and she didn't want to go. We forced him when he had a bagillion heartattacks and his stubborn ass wouldn't go. I'm scared.. what if she doesn't see me graduate... see her last lil baby do good in life... see her future grandbaby... what if she isn't there for me like she was for my other siblings.. I WANT HER THERE. Please... God... if there is one, let my mama be okay because she's really the only thing keeping my pathetic ass glued together.
B.