I'm sorry...

[imurlilbuttafly]

I'm sorry everyone. I haven't left town yet, but...I still feel like I'm a disappointment. I don't mean to make my problems everyone else's business, but I guess I should say something...

I...I was born with a hole in my heart. My younger sister and my mother worked so hard to keep me alive, even after our parents' divorce. My father never really supported me or loved me; he was just disappointed that I was so weak and girly. I poured my heart in my studies and got picked on. Then I got depressed and lost faith in people.

I...I do want to sing, though. I know it would be really hard, but I really do like singing and writing songs. I used to sing to my sister and she loved it.

I feel so depressed that I could just die. Or maybe I get depressed because I think I might die soon... I need another surgery, and medication, but I don't have the money for it.

I'm really sorry for taking up your time. I didn't mean to bring everyone else down.

[Miss Anzu is so nice. She's nothing like the mean girl who used to pick on me all the time. I...I wonder if she's pretty...

Never mind, she'd never like a dork like me.]