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im so upset. i just get so u;pset when i m drunk. i just get so upset. tyler said he was going tohang out with me tonight. and then he came overaand then left to go to his friends house. LIke i dunno... do guys hot understand that sometimes girls are hurt?? That sometimes they do things tuat hurt us they just dont realize it... i mean how rtardedn is that that i a\m upset just becuase he came over and ten left. I just fee like its my fault... like maybe I was acting too drunk. But i wasnt... I was completel fine. I don't know what hje left. I always dissa[opnted/
I always seem to get my hopes up. I get so excited to see someone, jhust one person> And then i get let down. every single time. I can't tell you the number of times i have dried to my roommates.... I just feel so aone when I dont have someone in my life. when i dont have a boyfriend. im SO unstabel SOO unstable. I just want someone to be concrete security in my life. And I get so excited about one person... Like there the person that is going to be there for me. and then Iget dissapointed becuase guyd dont get as \emotinal as girls do... They dont understand that when they go to hang ot with their friends instead of hanging out wtih the girls that the girl freels lonely. I feel so lonely. All the time
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I just need to be happy. With myself. I cant make anyhone else happy until I can mae myself happy.
I cant make anyone else ha[[py untim i can make jyself happy.
I cant make anyone else happy until I can make myspaeft happy.
I cant behappy with someone in my life until I am happy with myself. Alone. Just eme. BHut I cant be. Im just so sensitive.
When i get drunk i get in touch with my TRUE feelings.
WHen erveruyojne else gets drunk they get gigglyh... and happy/// and ythey love everyone. WQhat is wrong with em
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\What is weong with me
What is wrong with me
I'm fine. Its normal. Im just going through normal teenage shit. Im just goingnto learn about how to be happy woth myself. without someone else in my life
DONE
I always seem to get my hopes up. I get so excited to see someone, jhust one person> And then i get let down. every single time. I can't tell you the number of times i have dried to my roommates.... I just feel so aone when I dont have someone in my life. when i dont have a boyfriend. im SO unstabel SOO unstable. I just want someone to be concrete security in my life. And I get so excited about one person... Like there the person that is going to be there for me. and then Iget dissapointed becuase guyd dont get as \emotinal as girls do... They dont understand that when they go to hang ot with their friends instead of hanging out wtih the girls that the girl freels lonely. I feel so lonely. All the time
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I just need to be happy. With myself. I cant make anyhone else happy until I can mae myself happy.
I cant make anyone else ha[[py untim i can make jyself happy.
I cant make anyone else happy until I can make myspaeft happy.
I cant behappy with someone in my life until I am happy with myself. Alone. Just eme. BHut I cant be. Im just so sensitive.
When i get drunk i get in touch with my TRUE feelings.
WHen erveruyojne else gets drunk they get gigglyh... and happy/// and ythey love everyone. WQhat is wrong with em
\
\What is weong with me
What is wrong with me
I'm fine. Its normal. Im just going through normal teenage shit. Im just goingnto learn about how to be happy woth myself. without someone else in my life
DONE