well...the people i meet even though i dont want to....what is WRONG with me!??!
well...was just on the phone to him (yes, i admit, 2 other people too) and he says he misses me lots and stuff and its reallly boring for him and everything...poor baby...
why do i feel so shit!?!! geez I'm FOR ONCE not doing anything with this person and im guilt is eating me up already... I mean... i just feel like I'm lying to him. poo. and I'm meeting this girl I dont really like tomorrow...but again shes been my best friend since kindergarden...so i have too. anyway we both smoked my weed last time and she wants to pay me back... ugh, i dont wanna get tooo stoned though...or else I'll eat so much, and wont be able to do anything proper in the evening OR in the morning and i cant always sleep in class.
FUCK... german, french and science exams next week.... well ill just smoke a little bit...welll see. and the other reason im gonna meet her is becuz its her bday today, so i cant say no... not that you think I'm just meeting her cuz she has weed... *looks innocently*
and my other problem is that i fell in love with my dealer, who is five years older than me, smokes weed the whole day and has a girlfriend... AND i have a boyfriend so this is extremely not good. well i should get to sleep... big day tomorrow... (kind of) (WHAT?! big day?! no...not really)
well good night...wish me luck as usual...*yawn*
Hereby I Promise myself not to get drunk tomorrow...JUST WEED!!! ive got to study!!! argh... I'm such a loser.... I should die...or just sleep gnite
why do i feel so shit!?!! geez I'm FOR ONCE not doing anything with this person and im guilt is eating me up already... I mean... i just feel like I'm lying to him. poo. and I'm meeting this girl I dont really like tomorrow...but again shes been my best friend since kindergarden...so i have too. anyway we both smoked my weed last time and she wants to pay me back... ugh, i dont wanna get tooo stoned though...or else I'll eat so much, and wont be able to do anything proper in the evening OR in the morning and i cant always sleep in class.
FUCK... german, french and science exams next week.... well ill just smoke a little bit...welll see. and the other reason im gonna meet her is becuz its her bday today, so i cant say no... not that you think I'm just meeting her cuz she has weed... *looks innocently*
and my other problem is that i fell in love with my dealer, who is five years older than me, smokes weed the whole day and has a girlfriend... AND i have a boyfriend so this is extremely not good. well i should get to sleep... big day tomorrow... (kind of) (WHAT?! big day?! no...not really)
well good night...wish me luck as usual...*yawn*
Hereby I Promise myself not to get drunk tomorrow...JUST WEED!!! ive got to study!!! argh... I'm such a loser.... I should die...or just sleep gnite