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So, I wrote this on April 3rd, 2009:
I want a boy. I really want a boy.
And not just any boy.
I want a cute boy. That can outsmart me. And argue with me.
And disagree wtih me. And challenge me. And educate me.
I want to learn from a boy. I don't want to feel better than him.
I want to feel inferior. I need someone better than me.
I want someone better than me. But not JUST better than me.
I want him to feel like I'm better than him, just so I can say he's not.
I want a boy that can take me out for coffee while we catch up on the latest political news.
I want a boy who GETS ME. Who understands that I'm not crazy, just passionate.
I want a boy who knows what's important to me. I want a boy that can criticize me.
And one that I can take home to mama. One who doesn't like barack obizzle.
Or maybe he does, but he'll respect me for disagreeing with him.
I want someone who can appreciate school.
And see the beauty in philosophy and literature.
Not one whose just going to class to get by. One who makes the most out of education.
One who loves his mom. One who drives a shitty car but works alot.
One who respects that I'm still a virgin. One who doesn't just want a blowjob.
He'll see people the way I see them and he'll understand why I feel the way I do about the world.
He'll take me home to his family and be proud of me. And he'll introduce me to people.
He won't have to tell me I'm beautiful or sexy or smart because his actions will prove to me that he feels that way.
He won't have to do cute things or send mushy texts or call me just to say goodnight.
He'll just understand me. And he'll just love me.
The funny thing is that when I was writing this, I was thinking of everything that Adam wasn't (or what I thought he wasn't). But now, almost one year later, he is exactly what I described up there. It's so funny how things work out and I really couldn't be happier.
I want a boy. I really want a boy.
And not just any boy.
I want a cute boy. That can outsmart me. And argue with me.
And disagree wtih me. And challenge me. And educate me.
I want to learn from a boy. I don't want to feel better than him.
I want to feel inferior. I need someone better than me.
I want someone better than me. But not JUST better than me.
I want him to feel like I'm better than him, just so I can say he's not.
I want a boy that can take me out for coffee while we catch up on the latest political news.
I want a boy who GETS ME. Who understands that I'm not crazy, just passionate.
I want a boy who knows what's important to me. I want a boy that can criticize me.
And one that I can take home to mama. One who doesn't like barack obizzle.
Or maybe he does, but he'll respect me for disagreeing with him.
I want someone who can appreciate school.
And see the beauty in philosophy and literature.
Not one whose just going to class to get by. One who makes the most out of education.
One who loves his mom. One who drives a shitty car but works alot.
One who respects that I'm still a virgin. One who doesn't just want a blowjob.
He'll see people the way I see them and he'll understand why I feel the way I do about the world.
He'll take me home to his family and be proud of me. And he'll introduce me to people.
He won't have to tell me I'm beautiful or sexy or smart because his actions will prove to me that he feels that way.
He won't have to do cute things or send mushy texts or call me just to say goodnight.
He'll just understand me. And he'll just love me.
The funny thing is that when I was writing this, I was thinking of everything that Adam wasn't (or what I thought he wasn't). But now, almost one year later, he is exactly what I described up there. It's so funny how things work out and I really couldn't be happier.